October 19, 2015

When we Face our Fears, we Find Freedom.

peeking through eyes scared fear

The desire to not be flawed—to not have imperfections, to not have fears, to not have traumas, to not have pain—is simply ridiculous.

It is holding us back from action. It is holding us back from connection. It is holding us back from fulfilling our purpose.

The wounds we have are meant to be entered. The fears we have are meant to be experienced. We are supposed to feel them and move through them—embrace them and expose them.

Don’t downplay or diminish your fear in the light of other people’s suffering. Don’t try to bargain with it or change it. Reason has no seat in the council of understanding fear. Whatever your fear may be, it is valid. We ought not belittle our own fears in comparison to the weight of others’ fears.

For me, it was a fear of putting myself in front of a camera—confronting my appearance, my judgments, my insecurities, my ego, my perfectionism and my wounded child—and showing that to all of you.

It may look small to someone else, but to me—the act of recording myself and sharing it feels like the hardest thing in the world to do.

I know for a while now, many people have seen my writing—and yes, there were tons of fears I had to beat through in order to write and share those blogs, articles and posts. And you may be thinking, “What’s the difference between writing, versus making videos?”

I see my writing as just fleeting moments of ideas that flew through me. They are not me.

I see my body as something I just happen to be living through right now—it is not me either.

This realization is one I truly do believe to be true.

But still, the face that I see in the mirror stares back at me, with sticky attachment and stories each day.

I have many years of bad programming and debilitating beliefs about my appearance. It stems from a trauma I experienced as a child, and it has only gotten worse with time. My beliefs of having something “wrong with me” and that I was “not being good enough” led me to years of anxiety, eating disorders, drug use and depression.

So, to stand in front of a camera, for the world to see—and to openly discuss my fears publicly—is absolutely my worst nightmare.

But, I did what I feared the most, because I believe that our fears serve a purpose.

Maybe fear isn’t something we’re supposed to run from, but run towards instead?

Fear may be a signal to us of the things that matter.

It is only our minds that categorize the physiological experience of fear as negative or scary.

Our fears may seem entirely irrational, but maybe that’s because we’re not utilizing them.

Fear doesn’t say, “Turn around and run away.”

It says, “Come towards me and charge!”

So let’s stop waiting to be “ready.”

Stop waiting for your fears to go away.

There’s no real preparation needed. We’ll have our tears and sweat, and that’s enough.

They’re like armor—they come to prepare us for the fight.

The war between our fear and our freedom is always being fought, whether we’re conscious of it or not.

No matter what it may feel like, no matter how deep the scars and the pain go, no matter how debilitating the fear—know that you can overcome it.

We are always ready to face our fears—it’s just a matter of deciding to step into battle.

If we re-frame our wounds, our pain and our fear, as merely gatekeepers to finding our freedom and fulfilling our purpose, we can make friends with them.

In time, maybe you will see too that your wounds are your greatest gifts.

Your fears are your greatest allies.

It’s like a dartboard hanging in every corner of our subconscious mind, showing us the places we need to go.

That is exactly what I explain in the video I’ve created.

Through my very visible tears and sweat on camera, I invite you to watch me break through some of my own fears and find freedom, in real time.

None of it was rehearsed, and none of it was planned—I just pressed “record.” And what you see is what flowed out of me, in that moment.

I hope it might inspire you to do something you’ve been holding yourself back from doing.

If you choose to be vulnerable and let it out—you will see that, in the process of freeing yourself, you may help inspire others to find their own freedom from fear as well.



Removing the Mask & Fearlessly Stepping into Authenticity.


Author: Jenna Galbut

Editor: Yoli Ramazzina

Photo: Flickr/Alyssa L. Miller

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Catalina Oct 21, 2015 11:27am

i got randomly here (maybe not so random) and i couldn't help but crying at this. My whole life has been rule by fear, i have social anxiety and i have given up a lot of things because of this. Currently i'm studying to become a yoga instructor (which i really love) and i have my first public class next week, i'm so scare, i've thought about giving up and that maybe that is not for me, but this made me feel better and more sure about i'm taking the right path. Thank you, thank you, you're lovely <3

Carla Oct 20, 2015 9:23pm

Thank you for this sharing. I’m going through a similar proccess in my life and I started to cry too because I know how it feels what you are saying. Thanks for showing that I’m not alone.

Barbara Eisenberg Oct 20, 2015 3:19pm

Your thoughts are positive, honest and VERY meaningful.
Do not let your fears stand in your way and life should get better all the time.
You deserve it!
Love, Boobie 🙂

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Jenna Galbut

Jenna Galbut is an imaginative soul, trying each and every moment to bring more love and more light into our shared world. She is primarily a healer and finds herself doing her soul’s calling through the acts of writing, spiritual life coaching, speaking, kundalini yoga, reiki, art and activism. She believes everyone has a purpose, and that we are all here to fulfill our calling and make the world a better place in the process of doing so. Jenna sometimes goes by “Bohemian Wanderer Wonder Goddess Visionary Seeker Alchemistical Shaman Mystic of Light Lover of Wisdom Earth Priestess”— but only on Sundays. You can find her at a music festival, frolicking in a glen, hiking in the forest, having a deep talk with a stranger, sipping tea pretending to have a British accent or in used book stores sniffing books like its her job. Or more simply, you can find and connect with her on her social media sites: Facebook, Twitter, Pinterest, Instagram and her website.