The Truth About Why I Never Dated Nice Guys.

Via Crystal Jackson
on Mar 4, 2016
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Several months ago when going through massive personal upheaval, I had an epiphany about my own dating history.

As a teenager, my relationships were brief, often turbulent, and each more disappointing than the last. As with many young girls, I often found myself attracted to the “bad boys.” While exciting in the beginning, the relationships never turned into anything with substance. It always took very little to end them, and not one of these bad boy types were going to make the effort to keep me when the going got tough.

Looking back years later, I finally realized that there was something operating beneath the surface of many of my dating decisions. I had no idea it was there, and it came as a shock to me, but the cold, hard truth is this: I dated the bad boy because there was absolutely no way that I could screw it up.

There. That’s it.

When I was with that kind of guy, I knew that they would be the one to let me down.

It was inevitable that if a heart was going to be broken that it was going to be mine—and I guess there is an odd kind of freedom in that. I knew that there was nothing I could possibly do to really hurt them because they weren’t that invested in the relationship in the first place. I didn’t have to worry that I would scare them away with my intensity or that I would mess it up with my insecurities or my tendency to over-think everything. I could just do my perfect girlfriend thing and know in my heart that if it ended I could know absolutely that I was not to blame.

I can honestly say that I never saw it in quite that way before, but after coming out of a long-term relationship and back into the dating world, I found that there was a fear in dating. I knew that I would never again date my previous type, and I know now what I do and do not want in a relationship. I’ve found that the scary part of dating someone who is genuinely kind and considerate and truly wonderful is that I can screw it up. I absolutely can screw it up! All of my moods and my intensity and my insecurities…all are fatal flaws in a relationship with someone who might actually give a damn.

Now to be fair, my good points, I think, far outweigh my bad. With that being said, it is terrifying to think that I can find someone I enjoy being with and then have to be afraid that I will be my own worst enemy because I don’t have experience operating inside the bounds of a relationship in which I am valued or respected. Part of me is anticipating all of the negative behaviors I’m used to and the other part is trying to figure out how to take all the right steps so that I don’t ruin something precious.

I’ve always heard it said that women don’t want to date good men, and I actually want to disagree with that statement. The truth is that we do want to date good men, but we’ve found that they are difficult to find. Most of the women I know have had to put up with being lied to and cheated on and ghosted in the current dating world.

We’re not seeing a lot of courtesy or kindness or actual interest in our humanity. We’ve seen self-interest and disregard for our feelings many, many times. Most of us will tell you that we’d love to find a good man, and not just any good man but one that we can connect with and enjoy being around. I certainly identify as a feminist, but I still like to have doors opened for me and appreciate all of the other courtesies.

unsplash screenshot nice guyPerhaps the good men can ask their not-so-good friends to step it up, to stop disappointing good women because they can’t be honest about what they want. Those behaviors make it so difficult for us to keep getting back out there with our vulnerable hearts.

As a divorced single mom in my 30s, I’ve met my share of each type. Now that I recognize the patterns that attracted me to the wrong type of man, I’m actively working to change them. It’s so difficult to open up my heart again, and now that I’ve forced it to remain open, I have to worry that I will let someone down.

I try to be careful with the feelings of others, and I try not to let my own fears and insecurities take over. It is certainly a struggle.

I wish I could tell you that I found a good man and didn’t screw it up. I wish I could end this with some happily-ever-after sort of testimony to dating. Instead, I will tell you that there are good men out there. And I will tell you that I’m trying really hard not to screw it up. I’ll also tell you that when you date a good man you will never be able to go back out there and accept the treatment from one who does not treat you well.

It will change you, and even if it ends, you will be grateful for that.




Author: Crystal Jackson

Editor: Renee Picard 

Image: Angel Monsanto III at Unsplash 


About Crystal Jackson

Crystal Jackson is a former family therapist who's evolved into a spinner of stories and dreamer of dreams. When she's not single-handedly chasing around 2 wild and wonderful children, she's busy writing and finding ways to transform struggle into beauty. When she's not chasing children or writing, you can find her practicing yoga, finding balance as an Empath, meditating, running, reading, advocating feminism, plotting and planning adventures, and deeply enjoying her life. Follow Crystal on Facebook.


4 Responses to “The Truth About Why I Never Dated Nice Guys.”

  1. Ilan Strasser says:

    I have always been the nice guy. At age 54, I met a woman so perfect and wonderful I moved across the country to be with her. This was after a long distance relationship of 3 years duration. I committed to her and her children (14 and 9) . I gave her unconditional love, emotional and financial support, loyalty and fidelity and commitment. I accepted her totally the way she was. She dumped me 7 months after I got to the other coast to be with her. Most brutal year of my life. Now I have reclaimed myself and my spirit. Her loss.

  2. Matt says:

    “Perhaps the good men can ask their not-so-good friends to step it up, to stop disappointing good women ,…” Kidding? Honestly? You want to meet nice guys? But you can’t find? My advice: May you turn around and take a lock at the men who did care for you more than three months even if you didn’t go to bed with them. Look at the guys you call “best friend, brother you never had, …” Sorry you gave your youth, years of creativity and the years of young romantic love to the wrong men. And now when the daily business is calling for honest men you ask for the good men’s … no ! The next moment you ask them to regulate the bad men to be niece ones…. Actually I’m totally stupid. I did exactly that with one of my best friends. One of the only ones who staid loyal to me after I desided that I stop caring for people who doesn’t car for me. So having lost al the girlfriends – after stopping being their best friend, brother,not paid phsychatist -just him left I desided to change him to make him a good partner in his partnership, but fails first. But finally he has a new girlfriend since two years and he treats her in a very good way. For me: I am still left alone. And finally I just don’t know if I want to trust any woman again. Ever. Yes “good men, pleas teach the bad men to be good ones and then f**** off” thank you for this wonderful artikle. I am 32, God looking with a good job, but sadly an honest character . Single since, -who cares !

  3. Matt says:

    erhaps the good men can ask their not-so-good friends to step it up, to stop disappointing good women

  4. Paul says:

    There are many of us Good men out there which the women of today are very selfish and very spoiled since they only want the best and will never settle for less which really explains why there are so many of us single men today that are certainly Not single by choice.