December 16, 2017

When I tackled the Junk in my Emotional Closet, I found my Voice.

Every time we sit on our feelings or when we fail to say what’s bothering us, those unexpressed emotions accumulate like piles of clothing that no longer fit. Or like papers we no longer need.

The bigger the piles get, the messier life becomes.

“I never seem to get to it!” Jane bemoaned, as she checked into group. Cleaning out the garage has been on her action list for months along with organizing her office, sorting her kitchen drawers, and going through her closets.

She isn’t alone.

In addition to life goals, almost everyone in my coaching program needs decluttering. Whether it’s possessions inherited from dear ones who have passed away, or a backlog from a difficult time, or simply not being able to keep up with the busyness of life.

But physical clutter is not the only thing I’ve noticed.

Like we accumulate physical clutter, we also accumulate emotional clutter.

I recently moved in with my boyfriend and at first, everything was great. A clutter-free environment. But before long, it started: those little, unspoken annoyances. That sound he makes when he eats. How he leaves his clothes in a pile. And every morning, do we have to recap how we slept the night before?

Then there are the big things.

How I need space after work, but because he’s always so happy to see me, I don’t know how to ask for it. The way we sometimes talk past each other. Needing things from him that I’m not even clear about myself and feeling angry at him anyway.

When these feelings come up, I find myself biting my tongue. I worry I’ll come across as harsh or judgmental or maybe even wrong.

But over time, I’ve noticed that when I’m not being true to myself—expressing what I really think—well, I just feel sad. When I withhold my feelings, I start to withdraw from the relationship. I participate less and I end up feeling isolated and alone.

To avoid becoming an emotional hoarder we have to give voice to what matters.

I’m not suggesting we say whatever flashes into our minds, there is something to be said for discernment. Although, I realize I’d rather be wrong and say I’m sorry, than say nothing at all. I’d rather preface what I have to say with a preemptive apology, than sit on my feelings.

When we fail to speak up about dysfunctional dynamics in a friendship, or to the guy at work who makes off-tone jokes, or a family member who makes hurtful judgments, feelings pile up like dusty memorabilia forgotten in an attic.

Out of sight, out of mind things pile up. And over time, life begins to feel overwhelming and maybe even a little hopeless.

In her book Shed Your Stuff, Change Your Life, Julie Morgenstern says in her experience as an organizing expert, people who are ready to get organized have a clear vision of what they want instead.

They know what’s on the other side of the mess.

Morgenstern also wisely concludes when you don’t know exactly where you are going or what you want (even though where you are isn’t working), organizing isn’t enough.”

Physical clutter is easy to see. Emotional clutter can be a bit trickier. So how do we start the process of tackling it?

A simple way to see what’s stuffed in your emotional closet is to create a Tolerations List. List everything you can think of that you’re tolerating. Everything! From a squeaky door to a friendship that’s gone sour, from a burnt-out lightbulb to bills you can’t pay.

Next, pick something off the list.

Maybe it’s a family situation, money issues, or a loss. Think of it as choosing an old box to go through. Open it up. Look inside. Spend time with it. Who’s involved? What’s happening? How do you feel? What emotions have you been hoarding? Sadness? Anger? Fear?

And most important, what do you want?

Once we’ve explored our emotional boxes and know what we want, we’re more likely to speak up the next time we’re confronted with a similar situation. Instead of biting our tongues or walking away, chances are good we’ll stand and address the issue.

There’s no guarantee we’ll get what we want, but we’re guaranteed to keep getting what we’ve been getting if we don’t say anything.

And maybe, just maybe, if we do say something, things will change.

In the end, clutter serves a purpose.

It helps us stay where we are and if that’s what we need right now, okay. But when we’ve had enough, when we’re ready to move forward, when we know what we want to move toward, that emotional clutter is easily tidied away.

There’s no better day than today to open the closet, clear the clutter, and move on with our lives.


Author: Anna Celestino
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Editor: Kenni Linden
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