A Poem for those who Love Someone with Mental Illness.

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Will you Stay?

As I sat amidst the quiet environs of the majestic redwoods, my mind—in direct contrast—was awash with anxious thoughts, mixed with the fear of endings and heartbreak.

And then, everything inside quietened and the ink flowed from the pen.

Life sends challenges our way, but it also gives us the tools to conquer those challenges. Some tribulations are the result of choices we’ve made, while other times, we are just dealt some tough cards.

Mental illness and suicide have been talked about a lot recently, and rightly so. Suicide is the ultimate surrender to our mental strife, but there are many who don’t walk the path to death and live with the daily anguish of the brain’s subtle and not so subtle control over our thoughts and actions.

Having successfully managed my manic-depressive mind for more than nine years, I caved to a minor depressive episode recently, which mercifully didn’t last too long. But I don’t yet know if it has done any permanent damage to my little world of wonderful relationships.

Whatever triggered this episode, I know I need to be held accountable for the situation. Those around me are absolved of their role.

It wasn’t in vain though. They say the mind gives us agony but also the gift of creativity. There is probably scientific data supporting this too, but anecdotal evidence linking mental illness to creativity is ample.

What resulted was the following poem, which comes from the depths of a desperate mind, yet may feel familiar to many of us at some stage in our lives.

Mental illness doesn’t just impact those afflicted, but also their loved ones. In my experience, parents and immediate family usually won’t abandon us. But what about our partners or spouses?

Do they need to go through this trauma with us? Do they want to?

It is a choice only they alone can make.

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“Will you stay by me?” {Poem}

We chose to be together; it felt magical yet real.
We knew we’d be our last. We wanted us to be.

You said love is enough, and I said love is just the start.
There have been moments together when I’ve felt love is indeed enough.

I know I’m cynical and weary.
Toughened and maybe jaded by life’s experiences.

Will you stay by me, as I learn to see that love might just be enough?

There are challenges in life, yours and mine alike.
We both battle our demons—my moods being my failing.

My soul pleads for mercy, as my thoughts overtake my sanity.
Life is not as kind as we wish it to be.
Yet it has given me, in you, the gift of love and friendship.

Will you stay by me, as I struggle to embrace life’s benefactions?

There are things beyond my control, and I wish these were different.
My moods are sometimes beyond me—I say this as an acceptance, not an excuse.

I wish I was born different, but this is how it is.
I try hard, I really do. But life humbles me and shows me, from time to time, that I cannot get away.

Will you stay by me, as I navigate this path, often skipping with joy, at times dragging my soul?

I want to create the life we both could see.
Will you stay by me, as I learn to open my heart to life one more time?

It won’t be easy, it never has been.
Will you stay by me and wade through the adventures that trials will present?

It will hurt; it’s not a choice.
Will you stay by me, and let us be the salve that both of us need?

Will you stay by me, as I would by you?

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author: Sukriti Chopra

Image: IMDB

Editor: Nicole Cameron

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Sukriti Chopra

Sukriti Chopra is a recently settled (almost!) nomad, who is trying to grow a forest in her backyard till she finds her home in a real forest. She cooks for strangers, climbs rocks and is now trying to make friends with the ocean. She edits and writes not so interesting regular stuff for a living, and poetry and rantings for herself.  She is also a home chef and teaches vegan Indian cooking.

Sukriti believes in low-impact and minimalist living. She is a passionate environmentalist, outdoor enthusiast, volunteers in the field of animal welfare, and follows a vegan lifestyle. Follow her food and travel exploits on Instagram and connect with her on Facebook.

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Sukriti Chhopra Aug 14, 2018 7:36am

Thank you Tara.

Tara O'Neal Elmore Aug 14, 2018 12:16am

This is so incredibly powerful.

Sukriti Chhopra Aug 9, 2018 7:47pm

Thank you for reading and feeling it Denise.

Sukriti Chhopra Aug 9, 2018 7:47pm

Thank you for reading and your heartfelt response Darcy.

Darcy Stewart Aug 9, 2018 7:39pm

This is such a beautiful piece. Very powerful words, imagery, and description. Honestly, really feeling it in my heart, thanks for sharing. <3

Denise Belleville Aug 9, 2018 1:18pm

Just what I needed right now. Thank you for expressing what I could not.

Sukriti Chhopra Aug 8, 2018 12:35pm

Thanks Anisha.

Anisha Chugh Aug 8, 2018 10:26am

This is so beautifully written! I know it will resonate with many! Also thank you for your courage <3

Sukriti Chhopra Aug 6, 2018 4:33am

Thank you Richa.

Sukriti Chhopra Aug 6, 2018 4:30am

Thank you for such a heartfelt response Lisa. I am truly touched.

Richa Priyadarshini Aug 6, 2018 3:47am

Beautifully written........

Lisa Ferstadt Aug 6, 2018 3:04am

sukriti, this is so brave and beautiful. thank you for sharing with us. I am awe-inspired by you. namaste'

Sukriti Chhopra Aug 3, 2018 8:55pm

Thank you for being an inspiration too :)

Karolina Oracz Aug 3, 2018 8:52pm

Such a moving and beautiful piece. So important to be said out loud and shared! Thank you for your courage! You touched my heart, my fears, my hopes....

Sukriti Chhopra Aug 3, 2018 7:42pm

Thank you for reading and for your encouragement.

Juli Becker Aug 3, 2018 7:33pm

This is a beautiful poem about our commitment to each other through peaks and valleys...with or without mental illness. Thank you for sharing...both brave and honest. ❤️

Sukriti Chhopra Aug 3, 2018 1:12am

Thank you for your kind words Marilyn.

Marilyn Regan Aug 2, 2018 3:42pm

Beautiful poem. I can feel it physically. Thank you for sharing.

Newton Adi Chopra Aug 2, 2018 10:02am

It speaks the language of my soul....

Sukriti Chhopra Aug 2, 2018 9:04am

Thank you Nora. For reading and feeling it. A writer's expresssion and work wouldn't be of value if it doesn't connect with the readers. I'm glad you felt it.

Nora Hansén Aug 2, 2018 7:36am

Thank you for this Sukriti, beautiful 💕

Sukriti Chhopra Aug 2, 2018 6:03am

Thank you for reading Carin. You are also a part of this wonderful community which has given me the courage to write and share things that are uncomfortable, but which are me...

Carin L. Reeve Aug 2, 2018 1:30am

Sukriti, this is beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing your vulnerability and your creativity with us.