WHAT DOES GIVING UP HAVE IN COMMON WITH WINNING?
They are more related siblings than You may think

What does it take to Give up? Surrender ? In the meaning Give Up -> to BE-come a Winner…..
GIVE UP – TO WIN. ****
It takes not only radical self reflection and self responsibility alongside with vulnearability to ask for help if needed.
Be-ing Humble + Openness = Liberation
Dropping pride and masks aint’s easy. They are all well placed mechanisms of Matrix technology in operation.
Ego has 1000000000000 of deceptive strategies, spider webs, fishing rod and hooks, octopus like sticky legs and deceptive Light carrying entities that do everything to keep us complecent, obedient, small, in shame, guilt, regret, self harm, abuse, hatred, stuck, in fear, anxiety, contracting under all those layers of shadowy snow….
Underneath it all where light of breath can not enter freely – it is all suppressed. It is all stored, dusty, piled up and become rusty like old metal material undergoing corossion.

The Heart begin to build a wall. A Scafander. A rigid Stone like cluster of brics.
A shell. It hardens with time. Becomes more and more rigid, zipped up….unpenetreable, closed off and shut. Air can not enter in natural way there.
I learnt that too once. The hard way. Dormant traumas became awake once in my adult life and fear was leading the way. The subconscious and its scarred inner child patterns and strategies of survival were in the driver’s sit and taking the toll on my life .
It was not safe to be seen, to be out there, to share the truth of my Soul with the world in the more global scale way contributing to more. It was not safe to be seen as What was trying to unfold and communicate through me was so different , not “Normal”, un-conventional, wtf like…
There was a drive of Ego looking for validation and approval as well. Again voice of a onced shhut of kid. Not allowed to speak. To voice out its truth.

There was a sense of wanting to save the world from wrong set programmes.
There is still this sense. But from different structure. Different point Heart arrived at.
Change from within. Became the Leader once upon a time. And the Sense of urgency arrived to Share, To BE ME as Me with all expertise, experiences and gifts I can naturally show up with.
We can not do it all properly and find this Authentic Flow in Life is we do not HEAL those inner demonic , starving ghosts. We Must FEEL. WE can NOT Heal until we Feel.
So we must FEEL. But Feel fully. To the rock bottom. Where you think there is no more Hope. Where nothing makes sense anymore and you loose the sense of identity of point of living if healing did not occur earlier and certain foundations and values alongside with goals were not placed. The Point Where You give Up in Surrender if there is enough courage cultivated and Grace wants to work its way….
Be willing to Stay Humble.
To Open up in the face of adversity, often tremendous fear and anxiety beyond norm…. let it have You.
Let it break You.
Let it crash You.
Find safe space to be held in that.
A Sanctuary.
Inner Craddle like Space, and often a Person, safe Arms where you can Fully FEEL Your-Self. Experience what was not allowed onced to be seen, acknowledged and ALLOWED to surface at a certain moment in time.
This moment is Where You may switch the Green Light on and whisper..I don’t care…
May Your Will Lord/Grace/Universe/God Be done through me , not mine.

Broken – O* P*E*N********** in bilions of pieces… Shattered Glass…Mirror….of ONE Screen.
Who IS AWARE OF THAT SCREEN?
WHO IS THAT ?

Reconstruction.
Recalibration.
Reset.
Anihilation.
Crashing all old paradigms of Being, behaving, thinking….
WHAT IS LEFT WHEN ALL CRUSHES? WHAT IS LEFT? ….

Who IS AWARE OF THAT SCREEN?
and then WHO IS AWARE OF BEING AWARE? IS THERE A HIGHER AWARENESS AWARE OF BEING AWARE IN ITSELF?
WHO IS THAT ?
AND ISN’T IT A COMMON PLACE FOR ALL OF Us?
Are You/WE Ready? Are WE Willing? Will YOU/WE Jump? Go All IN ?

With Timeless LOVE,
Q Aga
Quantum Leap Journey
Be brave and willing to ask for space.