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I am 28 years old, and I don’t know if I like men or women.
I wasn’t allowed to date, and now that I am free to do so, I don’t know which avenue to take.
How does one know what they like?
Is it a feeling? If so, what does it feel like? What do you feel?
Did you explore? If so, how does this work exactly?
How do I know?
I know I don’t like almond milk, but love soy. I will choose chocolate ice cream over vanilla, coffee over tea, and french fries over a salad. I kind of like celery, but I’m on the fence. At least I know this.
Ask me, though, if I like men, women, or both, and I wouldn’t be able to tell you.
My therapist says I should explore this, but how does one explore?
Will I know what I like or will my experiences feel similar to my relationship with celery?
I saw an attractive guy today and felt nothing. I was more fixated on picking out chocolate ice cream.
My friends are always talking my ear off about their relationships, and I am not sure how to respond. I try to sound empathetic, but all stories about celery are the same.
I went on a date last year and felt nothing. I shook his hand to say thank you. He looked shocked and walked away.
Maybe I’m dating the wrong people. Maybe I don’t like men. Maybe dating isn’t for me. I want to hope there’s hope, but celery is boring, and I would rather spend my days writing and reading novels.
My homework is to explore my sexuality.
I wish there were a study guide.
For now, I’ll put a sign on my car as new drivers do to alert those around me that I have no clue as to what I am doing.
If I accidentally hurt you, I’m sorry. I am new at this.