I am an inquisitive mind and a seeker.
For my entire life, I’ve been digging and asking questions.
Sometimes, there’s this empowering sense that I know the answers to everything. Yet, it’s also right at this point when life seemingly spins around and changes the questions on me.
Just when we think we’ve got it nailed, we become the nail. Ah, the paradoxes of life that I have come to love.
Here’s the thing that I’ve come to understand regarding the nature of this crazy world we live in: There are no answers, no right or wrong, no point of direction, and no definition except that which we allow ourselves.
I’ve spent so many years exploring, trying to find a pattern, and working my ass off to make things make sense.
“This just happened, so it must mean that!”
Trying to make these connections between everything in order for the world to make sense.
However, what I’ve come to see is that, at the end of the day, it hasn’t mattered how many books I’ve read, who I’ve spoken with or studied under, or how many experiences I’ve encountered.
My husband loves Hermetic philosophy, and thus has introduced it to me. I have found the universal principles of the Hermetics to make absolute sense in my life. The thing I truly love about this ancient art is how they describe the principles and laws that sit and govern “reality” as we think we know it.
However, the further I venture into understanding these principles and laws, the more I am realizing that they don’t actually provide any answers—nor did they ever intend to. You see, when I first read The Kybalion, I was under the impression I had found the answer to life tucked away in its pages.
I believed that, perhaps, in thoroughly learning these universal principles, I could learn to bend them for my life empowerment and mastery. You know, like a magician of sorts!
“Learn the rules like a pro, so you can break them like an artist.” ~ Pablo Picasso
Of course, it is possible, in my mind, that this mastery may eventually come at some stage—but, who knows? However, for me right now, the reality is that, more often than not, I still feel like a leaf dancing in the wind. Some days, the wind is a gentle breeze and I float about lazily feeling like I largely have some mastery and control. Other days, it is gale force and I get blown to high hell and I feel like a clueless child trying to learn how to walk.
What we need to remember is that the laws that govern us, only govern the blueprint of us—essentially the idea or plan of us. Everything else sits outside of this blueprint in a constant state of chaos. That’s the resting state of the universe.
I have discovered that, wherever I find myself, the trick is to just be there.
You see, there’s a particular reason that every time we learn the rules, the rules change. This is because life is a quantum experience. It constantly shifts and the only thing that is ever certain is its changing nature.
Because of this expansive, dynamic, quantum state of “reality,” just when we master something, it shifts or expands. And that’s why we suffer so much, because we refuse to admit and accept this quantum dynamic nature of change. The Buddhists know it from their teachings of impermanence.
This is also why, no matter where we find ourselves, we are always at both the beginning and the end of things.
At any given point, we are in a state of simultaneously starting and finishing. This is the cyclic nature of everything we are. We have always known this too, which is why the Fool of the tarot is both the first and last card in the deck.
The journey of the Fool begins and ends in the exact same place because each time we obtain mastery, we begin again.
The thing to keep in mind is that we are always in a state of mastery. No matter what’s occurring, we are putting forward the best we can in that exact moment.
There really is no benchmark to what is success and what is not. Any gauge or measure that we hold ourselves to is purely fabricated by us. It is fluid, dynamic, and doesn’t really exist.
Remember what I initially wrote: There are no answers, no right or wrong, no point of direction, and no definition except what we allow and define for ourselves!
At the end (or the beginning depending on how you look at it), the message here is simple:
There is nothing anyone can give us that will make things make sense. There is no up or down but what we decide for ourselves. The world is a quantum matrix that responds to us, so what I scream as my truth, is my truth. It doesn’t have to be yours unless it fits for you!
We each need to go and discover one of our own truths or we’ll forever be limited by the mind of the person whose truth we’re embracing!
That’s how we find the secret of freedom.
Author: Lindsay Carricarte
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