In so much pain, and didn’t even know

It all started, when my mom had to go

Ever since, I’ve been beat down by life

Then my ex made my niece his wife

Spent a grip on nursing school

To walk away with no degree

I don’t understand the lesson

Why is this happening to me?

I’ve tried to be a good person, tried to be fair

Walked the straight and narrow

To still get nowhere

Filled with this emptiness, hurts too much to cry

Calling on the Lord, to help me understand why

My love life’s a joke, had a few visitors from the past

Shared a couple stories, couple laughs that didn’t last

They were here for a lesson, not a reason you see

Rewriting the future with the past causing my misery

Challenging it’s been to keep pushing, keep moving forward, to progress

And do it all with a graceful smile, without showing distress

I have no rhyme or reason for these words

Just acknowledging my pain

In the struggle I find solace, this too shall pass

And victory I will gain