Low self-esteem (and what to do about it). ~ Ben Ralston

Via Ben Ralston
on Jan 18, 2012
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“I wish I could show you, when you are in light or in darkness, the astonishing light of your own being” ~ Hafiz


You may suspect that you have low self-esteem,

but you probably have no idea what to do about it!

 

Most articles about self-esteem talk about thinking positively, making affirmations, smiling a lot, etc. These things are just band-aids – they will only serve to suppress the truth about how you feel about yourself for a short time. I am not interested in band-aids. I am interested in prevention and cure…

In this post I’m going to tell you what self-esteem is really all about; how it is negatively affected; why I think it’s hugely important that we do do something about it – and what to do.

 

What is self-esteem?

(other than a term that is much used and little understood)

 

My definition of self-esteem is 5 words:

~ ‘how deeply you love yourself’ ~

So, how deeply do you love yourself?!

(Don’t worry, I’ll help you answer that question quite accurately in just a moment)…

I believe this is perhaps one of the most important questions you will ever ask, and here’s why:  the extent to which you love yourself dictates how successful you are in every area of your life – relationships, work, and health (emotional, physical, mental, and spiritual health).

I have a nice way of answering the above question. It is called The Mirror Exercise*, and there are 3 simple steps:

1. Look yourself in the eye in a mirror.

2. Tell yourself sincerely: “I love you”.

3. See how it feels, and measure the feeling out of 10 (see below).

If your self-esteem is intact (if you do indeed love yourself deeply) then the exercise should be fun!

However, for most people there is at least some difficulty – as they say the words there is a feeling of stress. This is because human beings are hardwired not to lie. So if you have low self-esteem (you don’t love yourself), telling yourself “I love you” feels like a lie – it feels stressful.

Lie detector machines (polygraph machines) work by detecting the biological symptoms of stress. But you don’t need a polygraph machine – you know when you are lying, because you feel the stress. That’s why this exercise is really quite an accurate (although not scientific) indication of how high your self-esteem is.

So the mirror exercise is to do the above 3 steps. The final step, measuring the feeling of stress on a scale of 0 – 10, works like this:

10/10 stress: as you say the words you probably feel quite uncomfortable, and you just don’t believe it at all. This means that you have very low self-esteem.

0/10 stress: no stress, therefore high self esteem.

Go ahead and do it now..

 

~ (I’ll wait right here) ~ 

 

So, if you just did the exercise, you probably felt at least a little discomfort or stress as you said those 3 words. Here’s why:

We should love ourselves completely. Human beings are Loving beings. The essence of the human experience is love itself. Your essence is love.

In Yogic terms this is known as Satchitananda: pure existence, pure consciousness, pure bliss. In a word – love.

But almost all of us suffer the consequences of unresolved trauma – usually much more than we realize.

Childhood trauma…

Birth trauma…

Trauma experienced by our Mother whilst we were ‘in utero’…

Not to mention ancestral trauma: the emerging branch of science called Epigenetics has demonstrated conclusively that trauma from the lives of our ancestors – especially trauma from the time when our egg was created in the ovary of our Mother (when she was a fetus in the uterus of her Mother*) – directly impacts on our life, even our genetic predispositions and biological constitution!

The kind of trauma that affects self-esteem the most is abuse trauma. And if you think that abuse is probably something that happens to a minority of those ‘other’ people, think again! There are perhaps as many as 99 different kinds of abuse, ranging from the more obvious (sexual) to the very subtle (emotional neglect). And abuse (defined here as a violation of one’s boundaries) is entirely subjective…

Some of the consequences of abuse are that we feel guilty, ashamed, and responsible for what happened. Essentially, we feel that there is something wrong with us – and if there is something wrong with us, we have a very good reason to love ourselves less, right?

Our self-esteem suffers.

My theory is that abuse trauma is the cause of most of mankind’s problems. Not long after establishing this theory, something happened that blew my mind. I was sitting at my desk, thinking and writing about this theory when someone sent me a link to a book:

The Origins of War in Child Abuse”
 by Lloyd Demause.

So I realized that other people were also coming to the very same conclusions as I was. And I don’t believe in ‘co-incidence’.

The purpose of this post is not to explain the mechanism of trauma and abuse in detail. If you’re interested to know more about that check back later, because I’ll be posting articles about it soon. Right now though I want to stay focused on self-esteem. And what I want to communicate is this:

1. Most people don’t love themselves nearly enough.

2. This low self-esteem causes many, many problems, both on the personal level, and globally (think war, corruption, and environmental destruction).

3. It’s not so hard to fix the problem on the personal level (thus directly and powerfully influencing the global).

When is your self-esteem determined?

“To love oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance” ~ Oscar Wilde

If you go through a painful divorce after 20 years of marriage, can that affect your self-esteem? I don’t think so: I think that the experience will simply expose your underlying low self-esteem (that was always there even while you were married). I believe that our self-esteem is set in childhood, perhaps up until the age of around 21 years old. Early trauma (at birth and pre-school) is probably the most impactful on how much we love ourselves.

However, another theory (which does not necessarily negate the childhood theory, but may just be another perspective on it) is that we inherit our self-esteem. After all, the trauma that we experience in our lifetime is usually  an echo of similar trauma that our ancestors experienced. So it could be that we inherit poor self-esteem, and then attract experiences that reinforce it (such as divorce), and perpetuate the pattern.

Either way, it does not really matter. Two things are important in this – being able to recognize the effect of the trauma (as opposed to the actual trauma itself, which is far less relevant), and being able to heal those consequences.

With modern healing techniques like Reference Point Therapy, which are simple, fast, and highly effective, we are able to pinpoint the exact consequence of the trauma (which is usually a subconscious association between one of our survival instincts, and safety), and heal it (release the subconscious association).

The effect of this kind of healing is a subtle change in all aspects of one’s life. Relationships, feelings, emotional reactions, and even the physical structure of the body (posture, lung capacity, etc) are transformed.

And the beautiful thing is that the change is not a particular change, but a wave of change – it is an ongoing process, namely, of us coming back to our true selves: love.

The analogy I use is this: if you have walked for a long time with a stone in your shoe, it will eventually affect every area of your life – your posture, your emotions, your deeper feelings, your sense of self-identity (ego), even the expression on your face!

But when you remove the stone, all of these changes do not instantly disappear – it takes time for each aspect of you to settle back to normal, and even the expression on your face will gradually, over time, relax.

Similarly, when releasing subconscious blockages, the effects may be felt instantly, but are always ongoing…

 

How do you raise your self-esteem?

“You can’t build joy on a feeling of self-loathing.” ~ Ram Dass

 

As with anything else, you solve a problem permanently only by changing what caused the problem.

In this case, low self-esteem is caused by the consequences of unresolved trauma. When you heal the trauma, you instantly begin to love yourself more.

I wish I could tell you in a short blog post how to heal trauma yourself, but it’s not quite as simple as that – it takes a number of days of intensive training to be able to safely find the blockages, identify their roots, and heal them. It’s quite simple really – you don’t need a degree, but you do need proper training.

I hope though that this post sheds some light on something that I believe to be the key to a more sustainable, compassionate, and peaceful human society: how much we love ourselves as individuals.

 

Participate in a simple social experiment?

“The privilege of a lifetime is being who you are.” ~ Joseph Campbell

 

I would like to propose what could be a useful social experiment: when you do the mirror exercise post the ‘score’ (out of 10) as a comment below (along with the feelings that came up too, if you like). It only takes a moment to do this, and may be done anonymously, and if this article gets 1000 reads, and 5% of people participate that’s 50 people – a reasonable number of results to compare and analyze . The results will either support or undermine my theory that most of us suffer from low self-esteem, and either way, it’ll be interesting! If you also write a little about what feelings came up as you did the exercise, I will do my best to answer your comment in a helpful way.

And share it up folks – spread the love, as always. Thank you!

 

* Biology lesson: a woman’s eggs are all produced long before she is born. They are formed in the ovaries at around the time of 3 months gestation in the womb of her own mother.

 

Bonus: click here for a fascinating and entertaining documentary about epigenetics.

 

I believe I first discovered The Mirror Exercise in a book, but I have no recollection of which book. So please, if you have ever come across this technique before, let me know so that I can properly give credit to it’s creator? Thank you!

 

 


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About Ben Ralston

Ben Ralston is a therapist, healer, advanced Sivananda Yoga teacher, and writer. His writings have been read by millions of people and can be found on Elephant Journal, Rebelle Society, and various other portals online. He has been teaching Yoga for 16 years in hotels, ashrams, beaches, gyms and rooftops worldwide. And he runs a busy international therapeutic practice from his home in rural Croatia. Offering sessions in person or via Skype, his therapeutic work is based on healing trauma, and the tools he uses for this are varied – mainly RPT, Shamanism, and energy work. He has also developed some of his own methods, particularly in the area of abuse trauma; ‘resource state’ awareness; and boundary reconstruction. He regularly runs retreats combining Yoga and other energetic exercises with his therapy. He would love nothing more than to see you on one of these retreats, since he believes that this approach to personal development is really the only effective way of bringing love and peace to global human society. Connect with Ben on Facebook. Read more of his writing on his new website with integrated blog! Yes, he's excited about that :)

Comments

114 Responses to “Low self-esteem (and what to do about it). ~ Ben Ralston”

  1. Alicia says:

    I burst into tears doing this exercise….not fun.

    • Ben_Ralston says:

      Not fun, no. But real. And ask yourself: do I want to live a life that consists merely of chasing fun and pleasure whilst avoiding pain and discomfort, or do I want to really LIVE?

  2. Ruth says:

    This article came at just the right time for me. I actually cried just looking in the mirror which tells me I have a lot of work to do. Having realized in the last few months that I must work on my self image in order to live a life of peace and fulfillment, I “liked” elephant journal and have been perusing articles on occasion. Now I see that all my efforts to help others will not be fruitful until I am able to see the divine within myself, as I do with others and the world around me. Can you tell me more about removing the blockages in my psyche?

    • Ben_Ralston says:

      Ruth, I can (tell you more). I've already written a lot of articles, and made some videos too. You can find all that stuff either here on EJ or on my blog, facebook page, website, etc.
      The key words in your comment, for me, are: I have a lot of work to do. Yes, we all do. We live at a time when it's possible for the first time in many, many generations, to really heal a lot of stuff. So remain aware of this, and do the work. Our children's children will thank you.

  3. bonnie says:

    Definite 10. I don't like to admit that I have low self esteem. There's probably a time in my life that I actually kidded myself into thinking I loved myself. But at 51 I have decided if I'm ever going to beat this thing then I need to address it differently. I've been to therapist…most of my adult life. I've just been thinking perhaps a life coach would be the difference I needed to finally make a break thru. Then, I saw this article….and something just connected. When I looked in the mirror my belly just went crazy. I feltl nauseous and stressed…I still do as I write this. Not sure about past abuse….have an inkling….but not sure if it's something I made up or not. Okay. I pushed myself to write this because I felt totally blocked and really didn't want to. Thank you for your article….really enjoy things that push me to think outside my box.

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  6. Rachel says:

    When I did this exercise I woudn't say I was 'stressed', but I wasnt necessarily at ease. Perhaps a 4/10. Within my body as soon as I said, 'I love you' I felt this creeping unease moving upwards to my face from my core. And very quickly the desire to 'dress me up' to make the experience of saying, 'I love you' something dramatic….rather than just what it is…. you know, make it like a 'show'…make myself appear 'interesting' – rather than just 'being'…
    Its a really insightful activity.
    I see that I find it very hard to believe that "I" am telling the truth. Imediately avoidance techniques try and move my awareness away from just 'sitting' with the acceptance of love.
    Also there is a voice inside that imediately jumps in saying that the exercise is irrelevant unless I can do the activity in front of twenty strangers!.. This is my high 'achieving' perfectionist – who I am becoming more aware of….
    I want to do this exercise more often. THanks for sharing.

  7. mel says:

    I think the mirror affirmations were from Louise L Hay's book "You Can Heal Your Life".

  8. Mindy says:

    I cried just reading the article, particularly the part about past traumas etc. Of course, when I looked in the mirror I cried the words because I know I hate myself. I’ve always hated myself. I have never known how to love myself or how to be loved. I was never taught any of these things. Feeling truly valued had always bern foreign to me so, when someone did see my value and worth, I could not understand my feelings toward them; I did not know how to interpret love. I am struggling with this so much right now… I have two dear friends that I feel so undeserving of, and one I can’t understand my feelings for. Unconditional love is not something I really know how to accept or understand when I am on the receiving end because I was never deemed worthy of this; I don’t even feel it from my own mother despite all she has done for me.

    I can go on, but… It suffices to say that I have so much work to do… I’m just so scared of it. I can’t imagine what it’s like to love myself without condition. The very notion, the very thought terrifies me.

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