I’m an Introvert. {Video} ~ Jade Belzberg

Via Jade Belzbergon Jul 21, 2013

shy, introvert

I am a master of observation.

I watch people from the edge of a canal-side café or the bow of a houseboat.

I see three tall Dutch girls, dressed in wedges, daintily pull themselves up and over a railing and into a boat that waits for them on an Amsterdam canal. Then I see the driver nudge the engine and the group ride through the canal and out of site. My snapshot of their life is gone.

I watch people at a busy train station, a woman keeping her bag tucked close to her as people mill about, some businessman traveling to a neighboring city, and later, two teenagers with their life savings strapped to their backpack.

I’ve heard people say that in order to fully live, you need to immerse yourself in life; you need to be where the action is happening.

But I watch from the sidelines, seeing life not from the center, where I star as a character, but from the outside, where I can see how people laugh when their friend, the only one who really understands them, tells a joke. And sometimes I can see how one person, not someone you would take as a bird lover, throws his leftover muffin to a sparrow perched on the empty chair beside him.

I’m not missing out on life. I’m seeing life in a different way.

I’m an introvert.

I’ve accepted my personality, despite teachers telling me to raise my hand and participate and friends wondering why I might not be as excited about parties as others.

But sometimes, just sometimes, I need to stop being the observer and let myself be observed.

As Susan Cain suggests, “Occasionally, just occasionally, I hope you will open up your suitcases for other people to see, because the world needs you, and it needs the things you carry.”

Perhaps today is the day I move from the sidelines to the center, to be a part of the action, just once, and let others see me too.

 

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Ed: B. Bemel

About Jade Belzberg

Jade is a long-time lover of journals. Hailing from the Great White North, (although she spent more time traveling than building snowmen,) she now resides where she can run along the coast, hike up several mountains, and explore the secrets of the desert all in one day. She’s game for any adventure, granted there’s kombucha waiting at the other end.

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2 Responses to “I’m an Introvert. {Video} ~ Jade Belzberg”

  1. BarbaraAnn says:

    It's work keeping yourself perched between society and the need for solitude. To quietly jump onto the dance floor when you want to dance and to know how to say no thanks and tactfully explain when the pushing starts….i'm not shy, i'm not insecure, I'd just rather watch for now… I long for the day when "introvert" isn't seen as shy or lonely or lacking. Thanks for spreading the word.

  2. Kristina says:

    Thank you for that. My whole life I’ve been made fun of for how “quiet and shy” I am. A lot of people just don’t realize how much is actually going on in my head or how much I have seen, experienced, or been privy to because of the very fact that I’m not a loud mouth. I accept and appreciate the class clowns and divas for who they are, I’m not going to try to change them so I wish more people would just let me be as I am without the pressure to be this outgoing person that I’m not or go to every party or get together or else be considered a hermit. Also, to realize that group projects are a high stress nightmare for many people at work and also many kids in school who don’t function the best under high stimulation or with being stifled by the louder people in the group that inevitably take over whether they have the best idea or not.

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