Today, I Want to Be in Solitude. ~ Renee Bannon

Via Renee Bannonon Sep 19, 2013

b877f35fde367e7d80f1b234ef3b7b0f

You know those days where something is just off?

Woke up this way. Your energy is a lower than usual. Your thoughts are a little more doubtful and negative. Your physical appearance is hiding under those comfy pants and old college t-shirts. You just feel blah about the present. It’s not the sickness blah either—it’s the life blah.

I find myself questioning what I am doing and where I am at in my life.

I am just still, motionless in my thoughts and actions.

What are the causes for these days? What triggers them and brings them about? Was it something in my dream? A conversation I had yesterday? A thought that has been lingering? An urge I have been suppressing for some time now?

Before, I would fight against it. Tell myself “no.” This day is not going to happen. I am bigger than it! I will push through it! I am mentally stronger! And that worked for a short period of time but then they just started coming back faster and stronger… Then one day I decided to surrender and do nothing.

I laid there staring at the ceiling. I took a mental health day from the world outside of my bedroom. I acknowledged what I was experiencing instead of bypassing it like it didn’t exist. I chose to be completely in it. I felt all the emotions and listened to all the thoughts that were coming to fruition. I cried. I screamed. I laughed. I realized. I understood. I found the root cause.

Surrendering helped me find a deeper problem hidden inside. Listening to myself helped me find a solution. Being mentally present in this emotional day showed me that a change was needed in my life.

Sometimes in life I have to just be still and listen to myself. My subconscious may be trying to tell my conscious mind something that I don’t want to acknowledge because of fear, discomfort or uncertainty. I believe that it is through these days they are trying to communicate with each other; to bring to light a deeper more pressing issue that needs some direct-uninterrupted attention.

So on those days when we are experiencing that urge to be alone, let’s do just that.

Don’t just think of it as “oh, I’m in a funk” and keep pushing on through the day(s) but rather explore it. Let’s try to find the reason this is happening within ourselves. Let’s go deeper inside our core and see if there is an underlying issue or if something is lacking in a certain area. Let’s find the answers and become more conscious and intentional living beings.

This day might be just want we needed to gain some constructive perspective on our life.

Like elephant journal on Facebook.

Assistant Editor: Gabriela Magana/Editor: Bryonie Wise

About Renee Bannon

Renee Bannon is an individual who is simply making the most out of her time in this life. She is learning the potentials of an individual and realizing that your attitude and perspectives can change the world around you. She is constantly trying to find her inner truths by looking deeper into her experiences whether they are mistakes, successes or neither! She has found that the best way for her to make an impact on other individuals is through her ability to communicate. If she can reach out to a handful of people then she is hoping the ‘pay it forward’ effect will apply and more people can know the deep happiness that comes with living a happy and balanced life; one that is focused with you as the reference point instead of others. All she really want is to make a genuine positive impact on the world.

630 views

Appreciate this article? Support indie media!

(We use super-secure PayPal—but don't worry—you don't need an account with PayPal.)

Elephriends - Mindful Affiliates

Leave a Reply