How I lost 30 pounds through yoga & never saw them again, with embarrassing “before” picture.

Via Claudia Azula Altucher
on Dec 7, 2010
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Early in 2008 I set off for a trip to India.

When I returned, I was 30 pounds lighter. The weight never came back.

A friend who knew me “before” and then “after” recently asked me how did this happen and as I tried to recall I noticed that it was not because of the yoga, or the trip, or the food, or because I starved myself, and certainly not because I was mean or deprecating to myself in an attempt to discipline my food choices. None of that had anything to do with it.

Releasing weight can be a drama or not, it can be hard or not—it depends on so many factors that I do not believe one single method can ever work for everyone.

But these steps worked for me:

1-Loving myself

There is no way around it, no matter who says that the US has an epidemic of whatever it might, or that I, or you, may need a diet or blah, blah, blah, it is all nonsense if we do not start at the beginning.  Loving and respecting me enough to sit down and look at what was important in life was the very first step.

I know it may sound silly but I followed Louise Hay’s exercise of looking at myself in the mirror and saying “I love you”, to my own image.  At first it felt silly, stupid even, and you know why? Because I did not believe it.  But a few weeks into it I did start to believe that I was worth of my own respect, and it helped me get grounded in acting as if I loved myself until I did eventually fully believe in it.

2-Daily Yoga-asana Practice

I find that the release of the weight for me had to do with a “momentum” rather than a “get thin quick” mentality.  By the time I took my trip I had been practicing daily yoga-asana for a year (6 times a week,  1.5 hours each day), and it had taken me 3 years to build up to such a strong and committed practice.

When it comes to releasing weight I find that it does not so much matter what kind of yoga one practices, but that one does.  The simple act of getting on the mat every day sends the body the message that one cares.  The body gets to be stretched, paid attention to, and aligned.

Throughout time my body began to take over, for example: it knew that we (body and mind) would have to enter kurmasana (tortoise pose) the following morning, and it knew that an empty stomach would make such exertions more palatable, and so it signaled me NOT to eat anything past 7 PM, a practice that has become a habit, because my body says so.

3-Verbal Messages

I find that people dismiss this quickly, so much so that I began to suspect it is a very well-kept secret.

When somebody wants to manifest something positive, then keeping the vocabulary clean (no curse words, no negativity), is key.  It surprises me to no end to see, even in yoga circles, a tremendous denial of the power of the word.  I hear people complain all the time, say bad/dirty/loaded words, and talk about their bodies with negativity.

Even as you read this, I will dare bet that you will either read through, or dismiss it promptly.  If you are still reading you are probably ready to hear it.  If you are, then do not allow negativity into you, in any form.  This in turn has the effect of cleansing the mind and to release bad ideas, extra anger and extra weight. Think of a diet of words as a foundation, the bad ones are very high in bad fats and calories.

There is a reason why I call it “weight release” (except perhaps in the title of this post), and that is because phrasing it that way is more powerful since usually whenever we “lose” something we try to “find it again”.

4- Cleansings

Weight release can also be thought of as “cleansing”.  What is necessary is to look at what is coming into our bodies and how fast it is coming out.  If we are not going to the bathroom (both for number one and two) daily, then there is a problem.

Just as an example, there are easy-to-use enema bags that help ensure that the “pipes” are clear. When I talk to friends about enemas they usually freak out, and so did I when I first heard about them.  However I was blessed to have a teacher in Thailand go over all of my fears and answer each one of them.  Will it hurt? No, it does not.  Will it be uncomfortable? Maybe but you are totally in control and can regulate the intensity.

Some people go all out and do a “colonics”.  Movie stars do these frequently because of the glow it produces.  I have not tried one yet, but I want to.  They are not too expensive and have an even deeper effect. And hey! If they are good for movie stars they are good for me too.

5-When you are hungry, drink water first

A yoga teacher once said that to me. Most of us get the signal of hunger when in reality it is thirst speaking. I know I confuse the signals sometimes.

I have tried this many times, especially at mid-morning when I hear the stomach rumble with noise in what seems like starvation, and found that drinking one or two full glasses of water may not stop the feeling of wanting to eat, but at least will delay it.  It will also hydrate the body, and help it with the elimination process.


While in India I felt a little scared about eating in restaurants because the quality of their water is very dangerous for westerners so, for example, eating salads (or anything raw) outside of the house was not an option.  This forced me to start cooking, and I prepared lots of stews and soups with boiled vegetables and olive oil which I served with brown rice.  I also learned how to make lentil dal, and kicheri, easy meals that are tasty and nutritious.

Also I understood that very often our bodies are starving for real nutrition.  For example, I learned that taking spirulina supplements is a great way of supplementing the diet so as not to have to eat a pound of spinach every day, or that Niacin (a type of B vitamin) helps enormously in uplifting moods.

7-Take that overdue vacation, make it a real one regardless of how long

Taking time for ourselves seems impossible, but it is not.  When a body is overweight, it is out of balance.  When a body is out of balance it needs time for itself, to heal, to have an opportunity to assess what exactly is happening and what can be done to help it.   As long as the time we give to ourselves is dedicated, focused time, it is useful, otherwise we are not nurturing our soul, and an un-nurtured soul produces an unbalance that usually manifests in us reaching for the ice cream.

I have noticed that people who say that there is absolutely no way they can take time for themselves are actually saying that their priorities do not involve taking time off, meaning, their focus is not on their own wellbeing but rather on other things.


Our bodies are determined by our genes and ancestors.  It is important to respect nature.  Yoga and these principles can restore our body to our original blue-print, to what our bodies would be like if completely healthy, but they will not transform us into super models. The real miracle in weight release happens when we shift perception, when we can accept our body as it is and treat it well,  with respect, providing good nutrition for it, so that it can function at its peak, which also means, mind you, at its ideal weight.

9.-Choosing the middle path (satvic)

Trying to eat only spinach or only drink water with lemon for days or going completely raw overnight or any other extreme is not only unrealistic, it is also dangerous and guaranteed to never work because we are fighting against a very powerful force of nature: our own natural psychological tendencies, which have been ingrained into us over a period of well, think about your age, that long!  In yoga this has to do with our “gunas” or psychological tendencies, of which there are three, rajasic or overexcited, tamasic or lethargic and satvic or balanced.

Forcing ourselves to be always balanced or satvic is in itself rajasic or out of balance in a forcing way because we are trying to machete our way through into the middle rather than respecting what is actually happening right now.  Falling into denial is not the answer.

For example, a few months back I felt like eating marshmallows.  These are not exactly healthy treats as they have gelatin and are full of sugar, but I was fortunate enough at that very moment to be listening to Richard Freeman’s Yoga Matrix and to hear exactly this, and so I ended up enjoying the marshmallows, which was, albeit counterintuitive, the most satvic or balanced thing I could have done.  Interestingly, I have not felt the urge to eat them again ever since.

10-Attend a 12 step meeting

There is a cathartic effect in admitting our vulnerability to other people, as for instance when someone confesses to a group of people that he or she ate two pints of ice-cream the night before, or when someone says: “I am powerless over this”.  12 step meetings work because they are simple steps that demand enormous courage, of the type that can only be navigated with help from others who also happen to find themselves in a similar setting.

The benefit of 12 steps is that they open people up, they reconcile people with their own humanity, through them we find that what we think is “crazy” in us, is just as normal as it is in any other person, we all share a common humanity, we are all one, and I have yet to see a form of therapy that is more effective than people being brutally honest in a group, and under very specific regulations for sharing, with proper boundaries and respect.

Interestingly enough, it was a conversation with Carl Jung that led to the founding of Alcoholics Anonymous, and through that all related 12 Step Programs. [see comments below]

11- Patience

Recovering a healthy body may take time, but every day things speed up, there is a momentum that is generated by slowly adding more and more healthy habits and releasing the old ones that do not serve us anymore.

So what if it takes 6 months or a year, or three? I have seen with my own eyes fellow yogis practice for 5 years and then all of a sudden release an enormous amount of weight.  In the end, the recovery of the original healthy body also happens by grace; we put all the healthy and nurturing elements in place, and then surrender to divine intervention, Gita style.

12.- Train yourself in trusting your instincts

Before every meal ask: “what is the most nutritious thing I can eat right now”? and trust, and let your body have it.  Remember moderation, of course, but do go ahead.  It may be decadent chocolate mud pie today, it might be baby spinach salad with fresh olive oil sprinkled with raw almonds tomorrow.

And so here is the embarrassing “before” picture. I was at about 148 pounds.  just like all those “before” pictures this is a photograph of a photograph which kind of makes it look like one on those brochures that abound out there.




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About Claudia Azula Altucher

Claudia Azula Altucher has studied yoga for a long time. Her only focus these past eight years has been on Ashtanga through which she studied at the Ashtanga Yoga Research Institute in Mysore, India (three study visits so far), and at Centered Yoga in Thailand (focus on practice, philosophy and pranayama). Currently she studies at Pure Yoga in NYC. She has taught yoga classes in both Spanish and English. She is also the Author of: 21 Things To Know Before Starting an Ashtanga Yoga Practice (you can get a free PDF at her blog). She writes daily at And you can follow her on Twitter:


192 Responses to “How I lost 30 pounds through yoga & never saw them again, with embarrassing “before” picture.”

  1. kerry a says:

    i loved this article! as i read through it i nodded my head and bookmarked it so i could reference it as i, too, look to find the balance. but then i re-read it more thoroughly and was slightly bothered by the fact that you considered that picture “embarrassing”. and that, to me, sort of took the fire away from your message. not completely! i still loved the article! but i want YOU to read it again. your words and your message are beautiful. i hope you can hear yourself.

  2. Meghan Joy Yoga says:

    As a person who has seen the scale go up and down a bazillion times, I certainly relate to this post. Losing weight it like shedding layers, I believe the only way to truly lose weight in a healthy manner is to look at the underlying reasons we overeat and soothe ourselves with food, and move from there. Surrender to the feelings rather than feed them, use asana and meditation to get in touch with our bodies, and move through the painful beliefs we have about ourselves. Thank you so much for this post! I really like what you say about PATIENCE! life is not a sprint and neither is losing weight!

  3. dharmini says:

    thank you , I think the author looked just fine "before" and its all a sad commentary, can you imagine this post in Africa …..

  4. Mariafullofgrace says:

    me too…. when I first clicked the photo from FB I mis-read the title, I thought it read "How I lost 30lbs through yoga and never did it again" because I saw the anorexic girl bending over showing her skeletal back (which I hopefully assume is not the writer anyhow). Re-read the title and it was a little surprised.
    "PLEASE. No more pictures of anorexia masquerading as yogic health. I want to see pictures of smiles. And a light in the eyes. Let us see the inner beauty shining forth and not the tragic insecurity of weight loss mania." Amen to that.

  5. elizabeth says:

    this article is very disturbing, thank you for making the call on woman to woman violence

  6. adventurousandrea says:

    Beautiful results! You are an inspiration.

  7. Alissa says:

    I found this very confusing! On the one hand you talk about loving yourself and using positive language and yet you describe your photo as embarrassing! It sounds like you are not fully walking your talk. why not just post the before photo without the judgement or better yet leave out the comparison and just send out the message of loving where you are in this moment? You even quote yourself- "accepting our bodies where they are and as they are" learning that the real miracle of getting to a healthy body is in a "shift in perception" it all boils down to loving ourselves."….. So why the need to say that your before photo is embarrassing???? UGH !

  8. Cliche says:

    I'm in absolute agreement with you.

  9. Karen says:

    I agree with Anna Guest-Jelley. While I found the article inspiring and good advice, I was also disappointed by the caption "embarassing before" picture. I am heavier than your "embarassing" size. Does that mean I should be even more embarassed? The point is, not to love the ideal size but to love myself now (overweight), love myself later (acceptable weight) and not allow myself to be influenced by other's perceptions of attractive. You only escaped the label, you did not escape the perception that overweight is embarassing.

  10. Greenergirl says:

    Same here. While you start with "love yourself" your final words are about your embarrassing picture, and specifically note that number… 148 pounds. I'm glad you love yourself but to end this way? I weigh more than that. Embarrassing?

    I believe your intention was noble but maybe still some issues…

  11. Shaun says:

    I have practiced medicine for over 30 years. Early on I decided to continue my education, outside of required CE, into microbiology, molecular biology, genetics, and physics. My point is that by not limiting myself to conventional medical education I was able to see interdisciplinary links that other of my fellow practitioners routinely miss.

    Now, my main point, being overweight is a sign of your bodily system malfunctioning at some level. Sorry, but be scientific about it, look at this issue objectively, being overweight is not our normal state. NOW, with that being said, if someone enjoys that extra bit of carbs, fats, sugars, or whatever it is that is making them overweight, even lack of exercise, and if they want to continue living that way then fine. I think that is absolutely their right, but I do advise them on the long term consequences and that the odds are if you are 30 lbs or more overweight for most of your adult life then you will probably end up in an assisted living facility at a much earlier point in your senior years. Is eating worth that? I explain the reality that they don't realize that a majority of the American public is addicted to sugar, and are not aware that sugar addiction even exists. But it does. I aolso point out the little know fact that our bodies, on average, lack proper levels of many trace minerals, and a major metabolic element, magnesium? Well, approximately 30% of the American public is magnesium deficient at some point every year?

    Please do not believe me, check my statements out. We have been lulled into a state of complacency by many different means. I go out in public and am aghast at families that I see in grocery stores. Mom and Dad are overweight, pulling along two or three overweight children, and carts piled high with processed food. No fruits, barely any vegetables that would qualify as nutritious.

    As for your claim that their is research backing up the oversimplification of obesity=unhealthy? I challenge you to find me one RESPECTED peer reviewed research that in any way states the obesity is okay. It is very easy these days to find "research" to back up dubious claims. One negative result of our exponential leaps in medical technology is corresponding leaps in research to be published. While brilliant and progressive research continues apace here and there, the amount of redundant, inconsequential, and outright poor research has swelled in recent decades, filling countless pages in journals and monographs.

  12. Yet to be Named says:

    I am sorry you think your before picture was embarrassing. You were and are beautiful. Now I would imagine more comfortable.

  13. Allison Saja says:

    Perfect timing. Bliss. Gratitude

  14. Abby says:

    It seems from the article it's Ashtanga.. which can cause a lot of injuries and I know quite a few devoted Ashtanga practitioners that after years and years of practice can no longer get into a headstand (sirsana) or upward facing dog (urdhva mukha savasana) or other asanas because of the yoga caused injuries. You would do yourself a favor Claudia to at least try and stick to Iyengar yoga for a couple of months and see the difference it makes. Alignment and precision are important and conducive to meditation which eventually would deal with weight loss issues as well if that is what one is aiming for.

  15. sirisantkaur says:

    Thank you for your truthful hints and sharing of experience.

  16. Carol says:

    Elephant-please be sure to fact check before you publish articles. Her origin of AA is incorrect.
    As a woman who has struggled with a severe eating disorder, I do find the pictures disturbing. I hear the words of self love but I have a distorted view of reality and my body and I go straight to the pictures. This could have been a very productive and healing article if you had left out all of the pictures. Thank you for your mindfulness and consideration.

  17. J-O says:

    @Shaun. I’m glad you posted your comment, ultimately it’s all about health and being 30lbs over is not at all good for the body. I don’t see why anyone should be made to feel bad about being embarrassed by being overweight, or not allowed to feel pleased that they lost the weight.

    A year after I had my children I was a good 30lb overweight and yes, I was embarrassed about it – I didn’t like it and I wanted to be a healthy weight again, so I did something about it and lost the weight through yoga and healthy eating. I didn’t starve myself and I’m so much more comfortable in my normal (for me) body weight. I’m proud of my achievement and I really don’t want anyone to say I should have been happy heavier, or that I should be ashamed about losing weight.

    Thank you Claudia, please keep putting your articles out there – I totally got the message you were sending out! All positive <3

  18. THANK YOU. And yes. This. Exactly. This article was very highly disappointing (and yes, traumatic in its own way) to see on Elephant Journal – and will be the reason I no longer spend my time here and why I must immediately disconnect from them on Facebook. Unsafe on so many levels… *sigh*

  19. I don't think this information was in any way asked for or appropriate in response to Kala who shared she was already feeling shamed. How disappointing that you chose to engage with her in this way. 🙁 It might be helpful to google the term "concern trolling" with relation to size acceptance/body acceptance and see how these sort of comments actually affect people. 🙁

  20. I completely relate to what you're saying here and just wanted to let you know that you are not alone (clearly as you can see by other comments) in being affected this way by this article. I would link it in a blog post to discuss all of my concerns with messaging like this if it weren't for the fact that I don't want to expose my readers or students to the article even for the purpose of dissecting the negative messaging within. HAES is gaining momentum and more and more books and research is coming out to dispel the myths we keep holding on to about size and even body fat. Good for you for taking a stand, here, even if you weren't sure you were going to add something. Trust me, you added something. <3

  21. THANK YOU for this… you explained this beautifully!

  22. Olga says:

    Love it!

  23. Sharkey says:

    "Interestingly enough, it was a conversation with Carl Jung that led to the founding of Alcoholics Anonymous, and through that all related 12 Step Programs."

    That is a totally misleading and bogus statement.

    The founder of AA, Bill Wilson, never met, nor had any direct conversation with Carl Jung before or during the founding of AA. Jung was not consulted in any way, nor did he offer any advice about the group's foundation.

    Your sloppily constructed statement certainly suggests otherwise.

    What is known is that a wealthy clergyman patient of Jung's called Rowland Hazard was told by Jung — who had failed to cure him of his alcoholism — that he might be possible to transform his life and beat alcoholism through a profound spiritual epiphany. Hardly a revelation, considering that Hazard and both his parents were preachers.

    Hazard passed that snippet of information on to a notorious drunk and proseletyzing Christian called Ebby Thatcher, who in turn passed it on to Bill WIlson, author of AA's bible, The Big Book. All of this took place in the mid-1930s.

    Despite (or perhaps because of) his alcoholism, Wilson was already closely associated a fundamentalist Christian group called The Oxford Society, whose American founder Frank Buchman openly sympathized with the Nazi Party.

    So, if I were to write a sentence as misleading as yours, I might say:

    "Interestingly enough, it was Frank Buchman's rabid Christianity and high regard for National Socialism that led to the founding of Alcoholics Anonymous, and through that all related 12 Step Programs."

    In future, you should check your facts before you publish in public.

  24. Laura says:

    I would love to know how you realised your dog knew the word 🙂 Did he/she leave the room, try to comfort you, what?

  25. tstock says:

    The sentence "If it's good for movie stars it must be good for me" um really – you were joking there right???

  26. Amanda says:

    Yes. This is exactly what I wanted to say, too.

  27. Deborah says:

    Claudia, your words have inspired me. I've gained weight after a job loss and divorce (both of which happened in the same year) and I know that I've been eating junk to comfort myself, to protect myself from pain, but in reality it has only made me feel worse. I used to do yoga years ago, and reading this article woke a memory in me of how powerful and healing it can be. I am going to a beginner class this weekend to get re-aquainted with the practice, and I so look forward to stretching, breathing, feeling in touch with my body again…and hopefully healing what is broken in the process. Thank you for reminding me how important it is to start at the beginning. That first step is essential, and nothing else will work without it.

  28. tee says:

    Claudia, I'm at a time in my life when the sands are shifting. You've reminded me of the age-old truths that will keep me centered and healthy.

  29. SatyaJen says:

    Thank you for making your eBook on Amazon affordable and accessible 🙂

  30. Danielle says:

    This article is disturbing on many levels. I wish you love, healing and peace.

  31. tsukaira says:

    I really love this article. The title is misleading because it is about weight loss, when it actuality it applies just as a basic foundation to everyone, regardless of size. I'm also glad that I am not the only one who started off with saying "I love you" in the mirror every day! It feels stupid but then it really starts to work!

  32. laura says:

    I so agree. Great piece of writing and sharing, but the 148 pounds being embarrassing triggered me too, though I honor that this is how she feels.

  33. rachaelrice says:


  34. Karissa says:

    Indeed. That word immediately threw me off from this piece. She certainly did not look embarrassing in her before picture. Someone that weighs more but is happy with themselves could see this and think that maybe they should be ashamed of themselves. It may be a doorway to negativity.

  35. Marissa says:

    Claudia~ I liked very much of this article. I really did. But I feel that you went against her first rule, “Loving Myself”, right off the bat, when you referred to the pre-weight loss photo as an “embarrassing before picture”. You even wrote in the article that you practiced daily saying “I love you” to you body in the mirror. It’s a small thing, but words can be just as damaging as actions. I believe it subconsciously sends the wrong message, one of shame and not fully being able to love yourself unless you were not overweight. Practicing true “Ahimsa”, is practicing compassion & non-violence to not just animals and other humans, but also to ourselves – the hardest practice, in my opinion – in actions, thoughts, AND words. Regardless of this perspective, thank you for sharing your positive story. It was inspirational & motivational & much of it resonated with me.

  36. Faye says:

    I’ve just read this for the first time and I was very taken back by it I will start today by looking in the mirror,am on a diet find the start very hard but because of the support from my brother I carry-on my journey thank you!

  37. Veronica says:

    OMG look at that smile (in your before pic) FYI you were always beautiful!

  38. Laura says:

    I'm fat and a woman and I am NOT offended. Claudia was sharing HER story.

  39. Maree says:

    I don't think you should call it an embarrassing "before" photo, this is what my body looks like and I'm not embarrassed…

  40. Sharan Sidhu says:

    Negative people react with negativity, if you cook your own wholesome meals, the body does shed, not only the toxins but the extra pounds too; absolutely nothing violent about that! Love it and happy for the author:-)

  41. @MaxZografos says:

    Agreed. We reflect externally what we feel internally.

  42. @MaxZografos says:

    I will have to object with the word "anorexic" you've used to describe the "after" picture. I've been following the author's work for years and I can tell you, she is anything but anorexic, or promoting anything related or leading to anorexia.

  43. Sarah says:

    Thank you…perfect timing for me to read this article.

    Over a 10 year period I seem to have acquired an "estrogen storage for later use – band" around my waist (and elsewhere) that is somewhat uncomfortable, and doesn't afford me the greatest mobility.

    I joined the local Taoist Tai Chi Society and participate in tai chi at the center 5-6 days a week. It is very nice to regain a more caring and intimate relationship with the physical aspect of my being. This is not just a one time class to learn a particular form of tai chi. The Society a community of long term members where caring friendships are being established that could easily last a lifetime. Many people eat and overeat out of loneliness.

    Re our words spoken out loud or otherwise: blessing or cursing anything – we experience that first. So we ask ourselves, what is it that we want to feel? Love and self-respect, or guilt and self-hatred? My cats are my canaries…I can always tell "how I am" by how they are in relation to me.

  44. You've got to be happy in your body; it's the only one you get. With that said, if you feel the need to lose weight for any reason other than health concerns I think you're missing the point of a healthy happy life. We all want to be our optimal selves.

    Keep writing!

  45. Lexi says:

    Same here. I thought she looked much healthier in the 'before' picture. The combination of the 'after' photo and article really hit a sore note with me. At one point in my late 20's I considered myself to be the very picture of health – I had dropped about 40 lbs., ate all the right things, exercised regularly, felt comfortable in my own skin, was in a great relationship and had a happy active work and social life.
    One day while shopping at a big department store I spotted a girl close to me who was painfully thin and drawn looking – my stomach actually turned a little when I saw her side profile. We made eye contact simultaneously and I smiled at her … and realized that the girl was me! I had been looking at a mirror reflection of myself the whole time!! At 5ft10in, I swam in my size 4 summer dress, my face was sunken in and my bones stuck out even from under my clothes. I grabbed a piece of clothing, ran into the nearest dressing room and sat in the chair shaking like a leaf. The incident scared the crap out of me and made me realize exactly how easy it is to get sucked into the whole 'my life is happy as long as I am skinny' thing

  46. elissascott says:

    Brilliant writing and insight… "When it comes to releasing weight I find that it does not so much matter what kind of yoga one practices, but that one does. The simple act of getting on the mat every day sends the body the message that one cares. The body gets to be stretched, paid attention to, and aligned." You rock seastah!!!! Imma gonna share the sh*t outta this 😉
    xx, live and love now, el scott… (aka el nino!!! 🙂 you made my day!!!

  47. deanna says:

    Best comment ever. I couldn't agree more. I feel the original poster could stand to GAIN a few pounds. No more weight-related posts, please!!!!!!

  48. LizEm says:

    NO ENEMAS! They should only be used in cases in which they are needed for medical reasons. If you use them constantly, your body will forget how to move bowels on its own, and then you will become DEPENDENT on enemas — very bad!!! They are not to be abused for weight loss!

  49. pinkintokyo says:

    I felt the same way, Anna. Posting weight and saying it's embarrassing was triggering for me too. Felt like the author was going against what she was saying in the article…. 🙁

  50. erin says:

    loved this.

    great read