I am Ready to Say Yes….But?

Via Grace Ventura Sardonicus
on Jul 27, 2011
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How often do you stop yourself from taking action on your heart’s desire out of fear, shame, doubt or guilt? How often do you avoid committing out of the fear of failing? Not being good enough? The question, “What’s the difference between feeling your heart’s desire and actually taking action on it?” offers a rich discussion that can shed light on the topic of commitment.

Bottomline:  I have no idea what the results of any of my actions will be. What I hold onto like a life raft getting tossed on stormy Atlantic seas is hope and expectations, which inevitably lead to disappointment when I don’t accomplish what my “little mind” maps out as my life plan.

Committing to my heart’s desire guarantees nothing about the results. A different point of view to explore:  Make the commitment anyway and take actions aligned with my integrity and observe what reveals itself. What emerges probably won’t look the way I think it should. But when a gift is given to world, something always comes back. The creative joyful freedom of expressing from the heart contradicts any and all messages that life is about “should’s.” Life becomes magical. If nothing else, I’m able to observe who my mind believes I am and those nasty distorted beliefs that keep me from my heart’s desire.

Take this example:

For 21 years I planted my feet in the fecund soil of a marriage producing 6 children. I’d say I was pretty committed. Seven years ago the commitment to the marriage ended, but as a Mom never. I am here for life. Even after that relationship I can still feel myself going breathless when I consider revisiting Marriage or any serious romantic commitment. A choking fear rises into my chest and throat. And the feeling of being swallowed whole.

First, the painful memories reveal themselves. Mostly of how I gave up myself. I keep breathing and at the tail end of the pain, a light appears. My heart feels a bittersweet melancholy for the cherished joyful poignant memories of my family as a whole. The births of our children, the adventures, participating in our children’s accomplishments, stumbles, crashes and harmonious times together. I also recognize gifts when I finally stood up for myself and was no longer willing to abandon myself out of fear of losing him, my family and personal identity, as I knew it.

At the moment I said ‘YES’ to fulfilling my heart’s desire, my life was catapulted forward from fear to love. From this paradigm shift, I am willing to say YES to my heart, taking actions that would seem risky to my fearful mind. I take leaps of faith into the unknown expressing my heart’s desire be it in a relationship or writing a book or public speaking. I am a different person now and no longer need to be in relationship for the fearful reasons I was before. The fear gets unhooked when: 1. I recognize I always have a choice, & 2. I am responsible for what I create. I say YES to my heart’s desire even when my mind feels fear. My heart wins! Is there anyone else out there feeling this same victory in his or her heart?  Ready to say Yes?


About Grace Ventura Sardonicus

I offer to you who have a deep yearning to re-discover your essence...Your lovability...Your truth... To stand in you power as a woman, integrated & whole with body, mind and spirit. Restore & mend the sacred relationship with Mother, your lineage...to feel the pureness of self love, trust, nurturance & support that is within you. How I Work As a Mother-Mentor, Transformational Life Coach, Healer, Yoga Instructor & Mindful Mama of 6 ages 17-28… I have a deep calling to work with women in their relationship to Mother. There are so many women in this world who have a burdened heart, a history with Mother that hurts; that impacts & influences their lives everyday…the places they don’t stick their head up high, step out into the world with confidence, faith & ways they know they can.I work with individuals in their own relationship & Mothers/Daughters together to create a relationship that is life giving & supportive. 35 years ago I began my study of the body through Art, Energy work, Massage, Dance, Tai Chi & Yoga. I wanted to deepen & crack the code of the heart. To be a Healer & fall in love! I went for it through Native American sweat lodge ceremonies, vision quests, Intensive Meditation Retreats, Transformational inner journeys & rigorous study of the body through more traditional schooling. I have taught Self Care & Mother-Daughter Workshops, Yoga, Meditation, Four Agreements & Transformational power journeys to the Pyramids of Teotihuacán, Mexico. My extensive pilgrimages to India, sacred sites in Mexico & Greece have inspired profound awareness & creativity including an upcoming book, Mother How Can This Be? Unanswered Questions as Children but were Too Afraid to Ask. I am the author of Four Alignments of Self Care: The Journey of Aligning Body, Mind & Spirit to Cultivate Excellent Self Care, which inspired several workshops. Many Blessings of Love & Light, Grace Ventura graceventura.com


5 Responses to “I am Ready to Say Yes….But?”

  1. petersklivas says:

    Sing it sister! Yes! To living the life I've always yearned for.

  2. Catherine Marie says:

    Well said and so true! We all must follow our hearts more until
    it is the most natural feeling to us regardless of the fears we
    swim through to get there. Catherine

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  4. Tracy says:

    Good for you! Keep going and exploring and taking risks! I find it so trying because I was born to people who suffered from great anxiety. My mother especially has been indoctrinated with the fear of following her own heart. I refuse to do that. Continue to follow your heart!