Don’t Build Your House On A Bridge.

Via Kelly Grey
on Mar 22, 2012
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He asks the question again, after the Bushmills gets passed a second time: “What the f*** is it?  Why can’t men and women just get along?  Is it sex that is always screwing things up?”

I want to give a good answer, something witty and profound…often wondering the same thing myself, but all I can honestly think about is taking off his clothes, and what I might find underneath all those layers.

Two days and a night of drunken sex later, after one of his college students dies in a climbing accident, he asks the question again, and somehow, this time, it all seems more serious and weighted, and still I can only think of crawling back into his bed to f*** and talk and laugh and cry….

He says there is only one thing he is sure of in this life and that is that he will die.  And, between birth and death, who knows what the f*** might happen, or what it is all about.  He says life is a f***ing trip, and I agree, and he says there was no way, in his wildest thoughts, he could have imagined the day he just had — talking with the parents of the student who died, showing them the ledge where he fell.

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I sat in his little bunkhouse room by the wood stove while he did his neti pot over the sink….one side, then the other.  He was suddenly inspired to use one because the father had given him advice on allergies before thanking him and leaving to go back east to bury his son.

Later that night, I caught a clip of Osho’s advising us not to build our house on a bridge…

The guy interpreting the clip talked of emotions and how we shouldn’t invest in them, should not build our house around them, because they pass, if we let them.

A few days later, a bit drunk, and naked again, I lay pressed up against him, nipples to his back, my arms and legs wrapped around as much of his 6 foot 2 inch body as I could, and I held him while he cried.

I thought of how many houses we build, not just of emotions, but houses of import and pomp, walls of rationalizations that imprison our hearts to avoid being vulnerable…whether it be our spiritual beliefs, our titles or our moral barometer of how things should and shouldn’t be….

Our anger, confusion, our denial… our seeking of shelter in a house, not only built on a bridge….but built on a bridge made of dust that has already been blown to the wind and I love this man for his ability to break…

…to simply not know.




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About Kelly Grey

Kelly Grey grew up on the east coast and wandered out west early on to find her home in the desert. She has been teaching, practicing and studying yoga since she was 15 years old, starting with TM and chanting with the Hare Krishnas on the Washington lawn, after getting kicked out of the Smithsonian for having no shoes. / She has advanced certification in Sivananda Yoga and as an Ayurvedic Practitioner and teacher. She studied Bikram Yoga and Astanga yoga intensively and is a Phoenix Rising Yoga Therapist. She is also a licensed massage therapist and Reiki master and received certification in India in Pancha Karma therapies and Abhyanga. / Kelly opened up and ran Yoga Shala in Arizona for eight years and started many programs still existing today in the local community colleges, private colleges and health clubs. / Her love is the river. Her guru is her dog, Penny Lane.


3 Responses to “Don’t Build Your House On A Bridge.”

  1. Eric says:

    Thank you. Yes, asking about the man/woman dilemma and screwing whilst drinking Bushmills won't really bring any clarity (but you're right, it may lead to more screwing 🙂

    I read that Osho quote last week, and I have been repeating it a lot to myself and others, we have such a tendency to make solid that which is not. Dogen said: "A Bodhisattva gives rise to no thought which keeps an abode" (I might add 'emotion' in there too).
    Also reminds me of the parable about getting into Paradise if you can say "I don't know", and really mean it….

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  3. I learn from this post and will apply this in my own and as I go on. Life has too much to offer and we need to pick the best and the right thing for us. As we choose, we have to think of it a hundred times before we decide.