When I Say I Love You, This is What I Mean.

Via Ben Neal
on Aug 9, 2013
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love, relationships, audrey hepburn

I love you. And not a day goes by that I don’t tell you.

But the silent poetry that throbs in my chest cannot be uttered in three little words—or 3,000 for that matter. Whenever I try to describe the way I feel for you, every word seems trite and hollow; the whole English language insufficient.

Maybe if I write it, raw and uncut. If I pour myself out, and breathe passion fire into these words and make them live, they might come into your heart and dance. Maybe when you read this it will take you there—to where the wild drums are beating, where pain and bliss both run together, where lovers die into each other, and are born again…

I want you to know this feel this.

When I say “I love you,” what I really mean is that I want you. From the very first time you ran your fingers through my hair, I have longed for you—for your touch, your embrace, your taste on my lips.

You turn me on. It’s undeniable. It’s chemical. It’s electric.

When I say “I love you,” I really mean that you’re beautiful. You’re gorgeous in your heels and gowns and all your glittering finery, and even more so in your pajamas and blue jeans. When you’re not even trying, when you let go and just be carelessly, naturally you, it takes my breath away—like a sunset reflected in still water, or a starry night so clear you can see the Milky Way poured out across the sky.

When I say “I love you,” I mean that I love your form, your body, your arc and elegance. I love the curve of your neck, your breasts, your back and your hips. You embody pure woman from the curls in your hair down to your ankles and toes. Like no one else can, you awaken the man in me, the beast in me, the passion and hunger and lust.

I love how you move, your effortless grace. I love how you walk, your rhythm and sway. I love how you dance. I love how we fuck­—how we breathe and thrust and grind as one. One pulse, one pleasure, one ecstatic culmination; a prayer, a holy communion.

When I say “I love you,” I mean all of you, just as you are. I love your silliness and your playfulness, how easily we can laugh at ourselves and at life. I love your courage, your strength. I love your jealousy and insecurity. I love your (sometimes painful) honesty. I love how you really walk your talk and take responsibility for your own “stuff.” I love your willingness to face your fears and grow.

I love who you are, deep down—the timeless innocence I see in your eyes. Underneath everything you say and do I see a pure and selfless intent, a kind and compassionate soul.

When I say “I love you,” I mean I trust you. I respect you. I admire you. I adore you.

When I say “I love you,” I mean that I’m sorry. I’m sorry for every time I take you for granted. I’m sorry for every time I’m too busy, too distant, too self-absorbed to make time for you. I’m sorry for every time I fall short of being the man you deserve.

When I say “I love you,” I mean that I love this dance of loving each other. I love how it constantly calls me to go deeper, to walk my talk, to own my shit, to face my fears and grow. I love sharing life with you—the triumphs and the failures, the laughter and the painful silence.

When I say “I love you,” I mean my life is better with you in it. I’m a better man because of you. And the more I come to know you, the more I want to know. I miss you when you’re not around. I’m grateful for every moment we’re together.

When I say “I love you,” I mean I want to be the one you turn to when you’re hurting. I want to be the one who listens. I want to hold you in my arms. I want to take care of you. I want to give you something to stand on in this crazy, constantly changing world.

I want to make a home and a family with you. I want you to be my partner, my lover, my Radhe—the yin to my yang. I want to wake up next to you in the morning. I want you beside me when I close my eyes at night. In a universe of infinite possibilities, on a planet of seven billion human beings, I want you.

Baby, the next time I grab you as you’re passing by, put my arms around your waist and pull you close, kiss your sweet lips, look deep into your eyes and say “I love you,” this is what I really mean:

Here I am—body and soul, sinner and saint, warrior and fool, all of my love and all of my baggage—all of me. Here I am, with open arms.

I see you—mother, daughter, sister, lover, the light and the darkness, the goddess and the scared little girl—all of you. I want you, all of you, you and only you, just as you are.

I have a place here in my heart for you. 



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About Ben Neal

Ben Neal is a father, a musician, a mystic poet and lover of Zen. He lives with his beloved in Kansas City, writing and teaching meditation and experiential spirituality, tending his garden, raising his son and riding the wave of global Awakening. He loves to have passionate philosophical discussions on the nature of ultimate reality over hand crafted Belgian-style ale. He aims to suck the marrow out of life, and infect the world with unbounded Love and Freedom. Connect with him on Facebook or on his blog.


65 Responses to “When I Say I Love You, This is What I Mean.”

  1. deedee says:

    Tears ran down my face while reading this piece. I felt as though all my longing in my own relationship were finally put into words. Thank you. I wish my love (still) feels the same way about me.

  2. Rebecca says:


    “I love you.”

    Three words that are so over used in our society with so little to back them up. Often times empty, hollow and fleeting. Given away so easily. I’ve been guilty of using them myself as a band-aid in the hopes that saying them would make me feel what had already been bled dry. That these three little words would fix what was already broken. I wanted to feel their deeper meaning and give the gift of their beauty to someone who had really earned them.

    Three words with amazing possibility.

    “I love you”. Now when these words grace my lips they carry with them all of the things that you write about in this piece. All these things and so much more. I now share them with a man who has earned every word; each and every feeling behind the words. I vow to no longer throw these words around so thoughtlessly and selfishly. Because like the love that I give, they are a gift.

    Thank you for sharing your words. Namaste.

  3. roy Lewis says:

    Thankyou for posting this , Im in a LDR and Its exactly how Im feeling about my girl far away ..thankyou again ..

  4. CosmicExplorer says:

    Wow! That's all I can say. It's incredible! It's beyond anything I have ever read in my life! It's so beautiful. Oh my god. I love it!

  5. alonetoolong says:

    i hope one day, before I leave this place, someone will feel like this for me~

  6. Tara says:

    Your comment shows you have never experienced this pure form of true love. There is nothing unhealthy or self-indulgent about it.

    I am one of the lucky few who have found it but it is not luck that keeps the fire burning – it is hard work. But I don’t see it as work as all I want in this world is my husbands happiness as that makes me happy and he is the same.

    I hope one day you find it and feel what true happiness feels like.

  7. sally says:

    Wow! All a woman wants!

  8. Cintya says:

    Thank you Ben, because you show how true love feels. You touch my soul.
    Blessings to you and your family <3

  9. Christian Guevara says:

    i read this when you originally posted this. i knew i read it somewhere.. i wrote something recently to someone who needed to know what i really meant by those three words. the overall theme was what i meant from those three words. thanks for the inspiration. appreciate it. you're words by far are on another level. keep it up

  10. Bola says:

    Who will love me? I have never been Lucky with love. Thanks for Sharing your thought. I love the love you feel towards your patner. Keep the fire burning.

  11. Ameroy says:

    Brought me to tears, Ben.

    Whomever she may be, what a lucky girl she is, to have someone love her so wholly.

  12. Christie says:

    Simply Amazing and Beautiful. Thank you for sharing such deep passionate meaning. This world would be so very much different (definitely better) if both men and ladies alike could be this heartfelt passionate.

  13. Maya says:

    I can't stop crying. I wish it ever happened to me.

  14. Corey says:

    Nailed it.