February 12, 2014

Going Deaf. ~ Alice Maldonado Gallardo {Poem}

 Fire by Mari Francille


My body is asking me to listen.

My sickness is the scream of a long forgotten voice

hidden inside the pores, the veins,

and the organs of my body,

the temple of my soul,

the sanctuary of my spirit.


I left my body orphaned.

I followed the light of others,

when I did not see mine.

I saved others from drowning,

when I had the ocean

inundating me inside.

I followed the trail of stars at night,

when I blocked the suns of my eyes.


I avoided the conversation

with my Soul.

I ignored the voices found

in each of my heartbeats.

I ignored the drum calls

vibrating in my ears.

I silenced the murmurs of my blood

running in my veins.


I was scared to hear

that pain is so real.

As real as the fire

that burns and suffocates

the skin of the Earth.

As real as the head

that falls from the guillotine

and stops at the feet of the Queen.

And as real as the separation

of the body and soul

after the last breath.


I lived in denial,

in an eternal lie.

Pain is an illusion,

Pain is weak,

but Pain did not lie.


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Alice Maldonado Gallardo

Alice Maldonado Gallardo is 47 years old. She was born in San Juan, Puerto Rico but at the age of 14 moved with her family to Massachusetts. She studied Latin American Studies at Mount Holyoke College where she was a Frances Perkins Scholar. After graduation she attended Loyola Law School but withdrew to pursue other interests. Alice worked as Assistant Editor and later as Web and Promotion Manager at the University of Massachusetts Press. She has also worked as a real estate appraiser, translator, secretary, substitute teacher, small business owner and web developer. English is her second language. Alice has been writing poetry in Spanish since she was 14 years old. In 2010, she was diagnosed with scleroderma. After almost a year in the hospital she was sent home to wait for hospice. There, with the help of her sister and son, she started to heal. Alice lives with her teenage son in Amherst, Massachusetts, and enjoys every day being grateful for everything.