Break me Wide Open & Have all of Me.

Via Sarah Kolkka
on Apr 21, 2015
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Tonight I ache.

With every beat, every breath, every blink.

But I’m not sad.

Not hurting.

Not broken.

Oh no, on the contrary.

I’m full of love.

The kind of love that overwhelms you, threatens to break your heart with its magnitude. Pushes into your field in waves, gently coming and going like the tide. Though perhaps not so gently.

Surely I am too small for this love. Too fragile. Too brittle.

Surely if I let it all in I must combust.

Break into thousands of tiny pieces never to be recognised again.

Surely it must overwhelm me. Strip me of my identity. Have its way with me; leave me naked, broken and shivering in its wake.

My heart hurts with love. So much love it frightens me.

I can feel my fear pulsing with the beat of my heart.

Screaming out to me that I don’t deserve such love. That if I let it in it will just abandon me. Toy with and then tire of me, leaving me all alone.

I close my eyes and take a breath. Another. Another.

And then I surrender to it. To this Love.

Allow it to wash over and through me. Through my fear.

To take my heart. My body. My soul.

To break me wide open and have all of me.

And in that moment I understand.

Love is the answer no matter the question.

Love is the essence of our universe, the building block of our existence, the true nature of our beings.

It is there always, fiercely gentle, patiently waiting for us to accept its unconditional presence in our lives.

Love is remaining right where it is, holding us in its embrace until we are brave enough to invite it in.

Love has no prerequisites, no expectations, no stipulations.

Love just loves us no matter what.

Love will not abandon us, it is us who abandons it.

 

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Author:  Sarah Kolkka

Editor: Travis May

Photo: Flickr/Hartwig HKD

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About Sarah Kolkka

Sarah Kolkka woke up one day and realized that the only thing that was standing in the way of her dream of being a writer was actually writing anything. Since then she has been voraciously writing about all the nonsense that captures her attention and crowds the space in her head.  She is fascinated by the magic of life and how it can either make or break the humans who experience it. This is often the subject of her musings. She currently resides on the Gold Coast in Australia where she masquerades as a normal human being (sometimes at least).

Comments

4 Responses to “Break me Wide Open & Have all of Me.”

  1. sara says:

    This writing is so amazingly beautiful and heartfelt. Thank you for writing it, and for sharing it!

  2. mat says:

    This is awesome … I love your heartfelt expression. I totally agree with those last 5 lines, I think about this, meditate on it and try to teach and live it, be it. Blessing Beautiful…may we all live in love and thru our wisdom be powerful in it

  3. Abhi says:

    Sarah, I’m a poet and this touched me. I wrote some very similar lines a few years back, and delightfully amazed that you and I came up with the same expressions.

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