Someone with Answers: Why I Follow a Spiritual Teacher.

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“I’m not evangelical,” I said, “It’s my path—it may not be yours.”

I was in conversation with two people who were adamant that life is a series of questions and that anyone who claims to have answers is either deluded, gravely simplistic or a charlatan.

My experience has been something else entirely, but I had no desire to argue with them.

Later, I mentioned that the book I have just published, Learning to Eat Along the Way is about how I met an Indian master of meditation some four decades ago and decided to follow this swami.

Astonishing things came up for me along the way, and how glad I am now that they did.

They were relieved to hear I was no evangelist about my views though, and we changed the subject.

Only now does it occur to me that describing my journey as a path implies that the way is charted well enough to follow, but in truth this can’t be said of the inner terrain.

It’s understood in any process of self-discovery that we’re setting out to explore ourselves, but this doesn’t mean what we’re doing is familiar or that it’s easy.

What we encounter on the spiritual path is our own complicated and devious mind, what yogis call the ego—our sense that we’re someone special. This includes our hidden tendencies and concepts, our murkiest desires, our most closely held secrets, our unacknowledged fears, all our blind spots, images we have no recollection of encountering before—and all of this is held up to the light of our awareness.

Put in this way, it sounds tortuous.

Why would a sane person embark on such an endeavor?

For one thing, it feels wonderful—filled with wonder!—to release even a bit of that morass of inner shadow and come into a sense of the Real. To discover our identity with the whole universe. And when you meet someone to guide you on the path, someone who has him or herself gone the distance—someone with answers, this makes it all more possible, appealing and exciting.

Certainly, there are perils involved in choosing a spiritual teacher.

When I first met this swami, I asked him how it was possible, with so many spiritual teachers around, for an ordinary person to tell who was for real and who wasn’t.

Spend time with him, he said. Follow his teachings. If you grow, you’ll know you have a real one.

That was one yardstick I used—for a while, anyway.

After a few years, I was grappling with inner demons so fierce—infatuation, anorexia, bulimia—it seemed that, rather than growing, I was diminishing. By then, however, I understood these were my tendencies, my patterns of mind, and that I would have faced them anyway. So, in this harrowing situation, I trusted my teacher and, I think because of this trust, in time I reached a place where I could trust my own mind.

In her insightful book The Guru Question, the psychologist Mariana Caplan writes,

Conscious discipleship involves offering discriminating trust to the spiritual teacher. We may take as long as we need before we are willing to give our trust, but until we do, we will not reap the rewards of our efforts.”

Caplan begins her book with the observation that in the Western world “we have not learned how to learn when it comes to the knowledge of the soul.” We have been educated to use the mind in the pursuit of science and mundane skill-sets but most of us have received no meaningful instruction on exploring the heart, increasing our sensitivity or cultivating an inner life.

It is not surprising then that the idea of having a teacher for the soul is foreign to most of us.

The spiritual teacher is a phenomenon of the great master traditions of the East—Buddhism, Vedanta, Shaivism to name a few—and the shamanic religions of many indigenous peoples throughout the world.

In a culture as individualistic as ours and with our recent history of spiritual teachers who have not measured up to their own standards, it’s no wonder that many of us are skeptical of accepting a teacher. Yet, as the swami I followed used to point out, the very existence of charlatans makes it clear that some teachers must be authentic. The charlatans have to be copying someone!

Caplan’s book raises the point that what is missing in our culture is not true teachers but what she calls “conscious disciples,” true students. It’s the student’s capacity, focus, interest, willingness and openness to the teacher that mainly determines what he receives from that teacher.

Think of a standard school classroom with one harried instructor and twenty or forty students of varying interests, abilities and backgrounds. In spite of the teacher’s skill, attention, preparation, compassion and whatever else she might pour into her classes, every student is going to learn at a different level, depending on what this particular student brings to the process.

Whenever we learn anything—a language, a skill-set, a sport—we ourselves do the work of learning.

And with lessons of the heart, there is yet another dimension involved, for the most significant lessons are delivered in silence. To receive this kind of teaching, the student must be perfectly attuned to the teacher—all systems open.

There is a pertinent story from the Zen tradition in which a disciple receives wisdom by watching his teacher, Gautama Buddha, silently admire a flower he is holding. The other students watch, not knowing how to react, but one student smiles—and his smile is enough to show his teacher that this student had gained subtle understanding.

Ultimately, what is received from one who has answers has little to do with words.

So, perhaps I’ve said enough.

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Relephant read:

Who is Your Teacher? A Guide to Finding Your Guru.

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Author: Margaret Bendet

Editor: Khara-Jade Warren

Image: Wikimedia Commons

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Margaret Bendet is a writer, editor and former journalist living in the Pacific Northwest. She is the author of the book Learning to Eat Along the Way: A Memoir, published August 2015 by She Writes Press. For more, visit her website.

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anonymous Dec 23, 2015 2:46pm

Learning to Eat Along the Way is an absorbing account of a fascinating journey. I felt uplifted and inspired by the subtle, sometimes inscrutable ways this guru affected his very faithful follower, so that her life seems to have blossomed. Margaret Bendet tells her tale with clarity, force and generosity. I read it through in one weekend.

anonymous Sep 25, 2015 6:49am

Hi Margaret

I have a slightly different perspective to yours. I apologise if it sounds clever clever. I'm sure someone else has said it before me although I don't recall reading it anywhere:

I'm interested in teachings as opposed to teachers.

As far as I can tell teachers are interested in teachings too. The last time I had dokusan with a Roshi we discussed another teacher's model of psychological suffering. At one point I sat in silence as he studied a diagram on my phone.

"Think of a standard school classroom with one harried instructor and twenty or forty students of varying interests, abilities and backgrounds. In spite of the teacher’s skill, attention, preparation, compassion and whatever else she might pour into her classes, every student is going to learn at a different level, depending on what this particular student brings to the process."

Maybe we have had different classroom experiences. The class you describe sounds a like a high school class. As we are discussing spiritual teachings it might be more useful to picture a class of adults. My most productive classroom learning experiences have involved learning from the other students and the teacher and outside the classroom learning about the same subject from experts.

"Therefore, Ananda, be a lamp unto yourself, be a refuge to yourself. Take yourself to no external refuge. Hold fast to the Truth as a lamp; hold fast to the Truth as a refuge. Look not for a refuge in anyone beside yourself. And those, Ananda, who either now or after I am dead shall be a lamp unto themselves, who take themselves to no external refuge, but holding fast to the Truth as their lamp, and holding fast to the Truth as their refuge, shall not look for refuge to anyone beside themselves, it is they who shall reach the highest goal."
— Mahaparinibbana Sutta

anonymous Sep 24, 2015 8:30am

Thank you, Margaret. Recently read your book and it really resonated with me. You've given us all a lot to think about.

anonymous Sep 24, 2015 5:19am

I read Margaret's book, "Learning to Eat Along the Way" and thoroughly enjoyed it and have mailed a copy to a friend and recommended it to my book club who are looking forward to reading it. Her honesty in her search for spiritual connection is striking and I think her efforts in that regard, though more vigorous than my own certainly, mirror the efforts of so many of us who look for meaning as we wander through our lives and/or a deeper connection to our faith and learn much about ourselves along the way. I think she has a great deal to offer her fellow travelers.