December 27, 2019

My Wife’s Life-Changing Freak Accident & her Battle with a Traumatic Brain Injury.

The seven-year anniversary of my wife Shelly’s traumatic brain injury (TBI) is fast-approaching.

Her life was forever changed in a split second on a cold day in January of 2013.

A freak accident happened within our home. A homemade bottle of ginger ale was taken from the refrigerator to the kitchen sink to be poured out. Shelly was busy and didn’t pour it out right away.

As it sat on the counter for a few days, it went from cold to warm. The ingredients of lemon, water, ginger, and yeast slowly fermented and turned into a bomb. The bomb happened to detonate at the exact instance that Shelly walked passed it in the kitchen. The force of the blast through the tiny opening of the two-liter bottle knocked Shelly unconscious to the ground. We estimate that she regained consciousness about 20 minutes later. She was bloody, her face was swollen, and there was ginger ale splattered all over the kitchen.

Dazed, she called me immediately. I was at work, running a natural foods store in Jackson Hole, Wyoming. It took me a bit to understand what had happened. She sent me a picture of her face. I was horrified at the sight of her swollen, bloody, black-and-blue face.

We lived in tiny and remote Victor, Idaho. I called neighbors to see if any were home who could take her to the doctor. Everyone I talked to had already made the commute to Jackson Hole for the day. I look back now and realize how foolish I was in not calling an ambulance. But nonetheless, Shelly got herself to the car. The car was covered in ice. It was zero degrees outside. Between scraping the windshield and running the defroster, after several minutes she was able to see out of a tiny corner of the windshield and she drove the mile to Victor’s lone health clinic.

The nurse and doctor who saw Shelly were appalled at the sight of her face. They immediately thought she had been a victim of some type of violence. Shelly was able to explain the freak accident that had happened and the doctor quickly called me. I was on my way to cross the mountainous Teton Pass on the 30-minute drive home to Idaho. The doctor was extremely concerned about both her eye and nose, thinking her nose and eye socket were broken. She told me the nurse would be driving her to the small hospital in the town of Driggs, which was 10 miles north of Victor.

I navigated the ice-packed roads to meet Shelly at the hospital. I could not believe how black, blue, and swollen Shelly’s face was. The result of the CT scan came quickly. The emergency room doctor explained that her nose was broken, but her eye socket was fine. She told us how fortunate we were for this to be the only extent to Shelly’s injuries.

We went home confused as to how this kind of accident could happen, but we were also feeling lucky that this was the extent of it. As we entered the kitchen, we saw sticky ginger ale everywhere. I also saw the two-liter soda bottle lying on the ground, intact. The bottle cap was in the dining room. I cleaned up, Shelly rested, and we counted our blessings.

The next day, Shelly went back to work. She had recently started a baking business that had really taken off. She shrugged off her injuries and dug into her many baking orders at the nearby commercial kitchen where she rented space. As the days passed, her nose and face hurt, but she was healing up and life was getting back to normal.

Fifteen days after the accident, Shelly called me at work to ask me to bring food home for dinner. She started to talk, but couldn’t get the words out. Panic-stricken, I quickly left work and drove home. I called the doctor and told her what had just happened. She told me we needed to see a neurologist right away. The neurologist only visited our remote valley twice a month, but she explained he would be there tomorrow and for us to come in.

As I rushed into our house, I was greeted by Shelly sitting in the living room. She struggled to talk and could barely move, let alone walk. I felt numb with shock.

That next day, we visited the neurologist. He told me that Shelly was much like a soldier who was hit by a bomb at war. She had a traumatic brain injury and she would not be getting better. This was our “new normal,” and I needed to adjust to it. He said this all in such a matter-of-fact way, which lacked any sort of bedside manner.

From this day forward, the true journey began. I quickly realized that I needed to seek better care for her. She was having to learn how to walk and talk again. Parts of both her short and long-term memory were gone. I was trying to juggle all of this at home while working 60 hours or so a week.

We had no family nearby. We had moved to the Tetons less than two years earlier, so Shelly had not made close friends yet. We were isolated, alone, and facing bigger hurdles than anyone could imagine. We had two children who quickly stepped up and helped however they could. Dylan was 17 and Taylor was 12.

The closest large city to us was Salt Lake City, Utah. It was five hours away. I made an appointment at the University of Utah Neurology Department. Shelly was furious with me and did not want to go. She did not realize how severe her situation was and how she desperately needed help.

In Utah, I learned we were extremely fortunate that Shelly did not lose her life that January day. She had been knocked unconscious for what we estimate to be approximately 20 minutes. The neurologist explained we were fortunate that she woke up.

I was falling apart. I would cry uncontrollably as I drove to and from work. I was certainly not a stranger to tragedy. My fiancée had been killed more than 20 years earlier, and now I was driving down the road crying and saying, “Why me again?” and, “Why Shelly?” But as I walked through the door at work or at home, I tried to appear to have it all together.

I had never considered Shelly a very patient person. But I was becoming amazed at how patient Shelly had become with herself and her situation. I was feeling sorry for her and for myself, but she would have none of that. She started working each and every day toward improvement. Baby steps were being made. Fairly quickly, we discovered that Western medicine does not know how to really handle traumatic brain injury. Their answer seemed to be to overmedicate every symptom, having limited answers on how to truly treat the root of the problem.

Shelly has what is called an “invisible injury.” Her face had healed up nicely, so she looked great. People cannot understand how severely injured a person can actually be when they look great. Friends and family started to think she must be fine, since she looks so good. That was hard, because we needed so much help, but people didn’t understand that at all.

We gradually eased away from Western medicine. There were a couple of local “alternative” medical providers that started to do wonders for Shelly. One provider worked on manipulating her central nervous system in a way that was re-wiring her brain cells. The other did amazing work with acupuncture and acupressure. We traveled to Arizona to learn “neuro-feedback” treatment that we could do from home.

We would constantly experience small milestones. Milestones such as driving to the corner to pick up Taylor at the bus stop, cooking a simple meal, or walking to the mailbox down the street. Shelly kept working extremely hard and was aware of each improvement she had made. The milestones achieved gradually started becoming bigger and bigger.

We had become tremendously close as a family. Myself, Dylan, and Taylor were the only people who truly knew what a courageous battle Shelly was fighting. The strong bond that was established between the four of us is hard to adequately put into words.

On the rare occasion that we would see friends or family, they would only get a small glimpse of her struggle. It was hard for them to truly understand the magnitude of the battle.

Nearly four years ago, we moved back to Arizona. I feel like this has been the single best thing for Shelly. Friends, sunshine, and familiar surroundings have been amazing for her.

So many areas of her injury have improved. The post-traumatic migraine headaches occur far less often. In my estimation, her motor skills are now 80 percent of what they were prior to her accident.

Her mapping skills are gone. She struggles with any type of multi-tasking. Simple math has become difficult. Areas of both her short and long-term memory are still affected.

She spends hours each day doing brain exercises that help her continue to make improvements.

The toughest lasting ramification from Shelly’s life-changing traumatic brain injury is her PTSD. When it hits, it is literally crippling for her. Her brain goes into panic mode and a wave of terror hits and immobilizes her. When this happens, it usually is sudden and unpredictable. It can be caused by many different situations, such as the loud banging of a plate in the kitchen, having a close call driving down the highway, or the radio being left extra loud when the car is turned on.

Our boys and I try to safeguard all that we do to keep these sudden situations from happening. Occasional instances do occur, but they are far less often than in the early days after the accident. I feel awful when something I accidentally do causes her to immediately shift into panic, as I feel that my most important responsibility is to keep her safe from these debilitating triggers.

She found ways not to miss Taylor’s basketball and football games, using earplugs and sitting away from the band and the majority of the crowd. She is able to drive the surface streets in our far western Phoenix suburbs and for a few miles on the freeway when traffic isn’t heavy. But she certainly cannot drive across town on the interstate. The two worst nights of the year for her are the 4th of July and New Year’s Eve, as the fireworks put her in uncontrollable tears and fear.

There are so many examples of things that trigger her PTSD. To see her so quickly engulfed in fear is both helpless and heartbreaking to me.

Shelly knows that her life will never be the same as what it once was. But instead of lamenting the past, she counts her blessings for what she still has, with tremendous gratitude for the ability to continue her life.

She mourns that many pieces of her independence have been taken from her, but she refuses to let the new realities define her. She lives by the motto of “no pity-parties.” She challenges herself to constantly make strides for the better, but she is always aware of her limits and of looming triggers.

I am her caregiver, as there are so many things Shelly can no longer do for herself.

I can’t properly express how inspiring she is to me in her courageous daily battle. She deals with the ramifications of her brain injury and PTSD with nothing but positivity and grace. I am in awe of her strength and optimism daily.

Shelly has taught me that although we can’t control the challenges that life throws our way, we can control the outlook, energy, and perspective we use to both combat and live with those challenges in a positive way.

Shelly is truly my hero.

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