You’re Perfect (& You Could Use A Little Improvement). ~ Tamra Rutherford

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on Nov 3, 2012
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“There are two kinds of truth, small truth and great truth. You can recognize a small truth because its opposite is a falsehood. The opposite of a great truth is another truth.”

~ Niels Bohr

Today was money meeting day—my husband and I regularly hold these pow-wows to “get real” about our finances.

This particular meeting resulted in feelings of disappointment and frustration over the fact that our income barely covers our expenses and, as it turns out, lately, we’ve literally been spending more than we make. In spite of hard work and reasonably high earnings, we’re not “getting ahead,” whatever that means.

That’s one perspective.

Another, equally valid perspective, is that we have a rich life full of incredible flow; we enjoy substantial income, money to spend on continued learning and growth—and we have always paid our bills on time. We are abundant in the realm of non-monetary wealth: community, family and health.

It’s a paradox—both are true.

Finances can become too tight for comfort, yet we’re doing just fine. We experience a sense scarcity and we feel fabulously abundant.

I have a love/hate relationship with paradox and I recognize that all great truths are paradoxical.

Some examples of great truths:

* My perception is my reality and my perception is not reality.

* I am perfect exactly as I am and I could use some improvement.

* When I accept myself just as I am, only then I can change.

I love the freedom that embracing paradox offers me. When I find myself standing in a strong point of view and then allow that the opposite point of view is also true—nobody gets to be wrong. Now that’s freedom! When I can see the validity of each side something comes alive in me; my heart feels more open and I experience a sense of permeability and connection—my whole being softens.

Alas, there is another part of me that disdains paradox.

This is the “me” who squirms when in a grey area. This part simply wants to know what’s right and what’s wrong, dammit. What’s black and what’s white? If I know the rules, the parameters well, then I know what to do and what not to do, right?

What’s the catch?

With the benefit of such clear distinctions my ego now has greater control. When it appears that there is only one right way, it’s like high-octane fuel to the ego and it won’t be long before feelings of shame, guilt and inadequacy will rear their ugly heads.

Nowhere does this black and white thinking arise with greater drama than inside of relationship—specifically in relationship upsets. Herein lies a hotbed of blame and suffering.

Someone’s gotta be right and someone’s gotta be wrong—somebody screwed up and let’s just be clear that the somebody was not me! This version of either I’m right/or you are leads nowhere except down the well-traveled road of resentment, self-victimization and separation.

Indeed, it is in the territory of relationship that I have come to appreciate paradox the most. Suzuki-Roshi said, “You are perfect just as you are. And you could use a little improvement.” This is especially true when we are in a relationship breakdown.

Here’s the scenario:

1. My partner says or does something that triggers upset in me.

2. My energy contracts around feelings of sadness or anger.

3. My interactions now include a tight jaw, averted eyes, a tense voice and a closed heart.

4. Both of us are miserable.

5. Later, as I realize I’ve been in reaction and have not communicated my feelings, I begin to feel some healthy remorse.

6. I desire to be back in connection.

7. I am doing the best I can and I can do better.

This is the paradox I love most: I was doing the best I could in that moment that I got triggered.

How do I know?

Simple. Because that is what happened. Period. If I could have done anything different or better, I would have.

And, I can do better. I can.

Sometimes I don’t react or sometimes I am completely transparent with my reactions, effectively eliminating the charge. And I want to do better. I don’t want to get lost in contraction and close my heart to my beloved. I want to be human, have my reactions and then let them go. I want to continue to do my work so that maybe I won’t react in the first place!

Here is the beauty of this paradox: it is completely honoring of both who we are and who we are becoming. It encompasses both concepts: that we are accepting ourselves just as we are and we are improving ourselves as two simultaneous human imperatives.

Evolving is simply what we do—forget the thinking that says ‘I’ve got to improve because there’s something wrong with me.’

Instead, we can honor who and what and where we are and still fulfill our longing to grow. I suggest you try it on. Right now—say the words softly to yourself:

I’m doing the best I can and I can do better.

Listen. Say it again. Let it roll around inside of you and just notice. Maybe you can feel a little softening in your heart. Maybe an uptick in your self-compassion. Say it again.

I’m doing the best I can and I can do better.

What’s true about this for you?

For me, what’s true is that we are doing the best we can with our finances and, we can do better—I look forward to the freedom this will offer us by the time our next money meeting comes around.


Tamra Rutherford is a coach, medicine woman, and conscious practitioner in Santa Barbara, CA. She is a fierce inner explorer, insight addict and a slut for transformation (hopefully her own). She will respond when called Monkey Woman, Gilroy, Jelly Bean or Crystalline, but answers to no one. When not guiding clients into their deepest hearts, she can be found practicing The Beauty Way and fantasizing about sushi. Contact her on Facebook or


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7 Responses to “You’re Perfect (& You Could Use A Little Improvement). ~ Tamra Rutherford”

  1. Simon D'Arcy says:

    "I am doing the best I can…. AND I can do better."

    When I say those words, I feel both some compassion for myself as well as a clear "calling forth" to show up in this next moment. Both feel empowering to me.

    Great article. Sharing now.

  2. Stan Evenson says:

    This is an inspiring article that empowers me to know that I CAN DO BETTER even when I think I've done the best I can do. "I CAN, I WILL, I ALREADY AM" is a mantra I've embraced for myself for quite awhile now…but this is a much simpler one that is my new one that Tamra effectively demonstrates on how to get there. Thank you Tamra for sharing your "3G's", genius, generosity, and goodwill.

  3. Bernard says:

    Very inspiring article! It resonates with my Christian's faith in the mercy of God, who loves us exactly as we are and still calls us for moving forward on our path of personal-growth and sanctity. It is finally a matter of love and truth, lovingly accepting the non-paradoxical truth about ourselves. And I say non-paradoxical because there are not two ways of being authentic, either you speak your heart or you don't. Truth is paradoxical as long as you try to seize it as an intellectual object, truth is too free to be caught that easily! Truth wants to be in relation, to be loved, and gives itself only to those who genuinely seek to be true. And when you do your best to be true… guess what? You can always do better! 😉

  4. Jamey says:

    Perfect Imperfection ! ! !

  5. Rick Weaver says:

    My favorite line…. "We experience a sense of scarcity and we feel fabulously abundant."

    While may offer one definition of intuition as "a keen and quick insight", I believe it to also be a "knowing." I related to the quote above because I have "known" it to be true on many occasions in my life (this very moment, being one of them). For some, the paradox Tamra writes about is uncomfortable and yet for others, it brings great peace.

    How? Well, for this seeker, I have grown into my comfort with the paradox and found great learning from it. I could question it, I could fight it, I could deny it – but I find my best self to be at ease when I embrace it for being exactly as it is supposed to be. Tamra nailed it and created the perfect image of what both sides look like – I just don't fight either one of them today.

    How perfectly gentle is the Universe that allows us the opportunity to question and then wait upon the answer. It is only when I allow the FEAR (false evidence appearing real) to become manifest that I lose myself to the mental static. Embracing the paradox may take some practice, but I am living, breathing proof it can be done – and done with great success! Thank you Tamra for your insight, your love & your providence.

  6. Tseha says:

    Thank you Tamra, your words are most inspiring.

    It reminds me of my duaghter’s reply when I am trying to ‘correct’ her ways, and in the next breath tell her that she is beautiful just the way she is when she is coping with external pressures. She simply inquires how can these two go together.

    I, for one, am constantly celebrating change and the expansion that it entalis (but of course, this is only my perspective…).

  7. Erica Schreiber says:

    Wonderful Tamra! I appreciate how simple, honest and raw your words are. I can feel you through your words, and that is such a gift (of yours, to me/us, from you, and so on…)

    I got really excited when I realized I had a mistaken notion of Darwinian evolution. I had always (unconsciously) believed that evolution was about getting "better," that is to say linear. When I learned that evolution is about a constant response to change and that those who best respond to change survive and thrive, and that it has nothing to do with better, it kind of blew me away.

    Please keep on writing!