June 6, 2019

Manifesting is Bullsh*t. ~ Stephanie Arnold


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After I flatlined giving birth, my story was later pitched for a scripted television show.

The writer, Dan Kay, came on board after reading my book and relating to the message. He was compelled to write a show “loosely” based on my experience of dying and coming back to life.

When Dan and the producers pitched the show to network executives, the hair on the back of my neck stood up. I never told my producing partner or writer how I felt. The script, to me, was fiction—or so I thought.

Now, while it is true that I have gotten sick from my death experience, I had never gotten a “debilitating headache” as the script said. But what I felt during the pitch startled me. It was the same feeling I had when I predicted I would need extra blood during the birth of my child. Now, my feelings were telling me that the tumors in the script could also be true. So I asked my doctor if I could get my brain scanned, just to be sure.

No doctor in their right mind is going to scan my brain without a reason so I got a resounding no from mine. No matter how much I begged and talked about a scripted show said that I would have brain tumors, the answer was always no.

It wasn’t the first time in my life that someone called me crazy.

Even with the doctor’s resistance, I spoke up, but nothing happened. So I compartmentalized that feeling I had during the pitch and I stopped thinking about it.

Fast-forward to the day I woke up with a “debilitating” migraine.

I had never had migraines before, and I threw up most of the morning. I stayed in bed in the darkness and couldn’t spend any time with my children when they got home from school. After 10 hours of this horrific pain, my husband called our doctor, and he told us to go to the ER.

He was concerned because I had never had a migraine before, and I was at a “mature” age. The fear was that there could be an underlying issue or that my brain was bleeding. Whatever it was, I was admitted into the ER and a CT scan was ordered.

My medical records speak for themselves. The report is dated. The script is dated. The pitches are on the books at the networks.

The CT scan showed that there was a small cyst at the base of my brain.

My husband looked stunned for a moment and went into autopilot asking a ton of questions.

I just laughed. 

Both my husband and the doctor thought it was a strange reaction, but I immediately knew I would be fine. I was thinking to myself, of course, this had to happen. I felt it and it came true. How ironic, right? What a warped sense of humor I have.

The doctors thought the migraine was caused by my menopause getting more intense. The cyst was nothing to worry about, in my opinion.

My consultation with a neurologist confirmed that the cyst was benign. I got an MRI as well to confirm because even though our intuitions can tell us one thing, science can either validate or question it. So I got the extra confirmation that my cyst was benign.

But, here’s the big question:

If you have a thought, will it come true?

Can we really manifest something like a cyst in our brains just because we hear the words? Or when we read something which that resonates in our souls, does it send a signal to our brains to be on alert?

I can’t manifest my way to a cyst in my brain. The same way I couldn’t think my way to a hemorrhage.

We can’t think our way to a lethal health crisis. We can’t manifest it.

I’m not talking about the common cold. I’m talking about needing surgery for organ failure or imagining that we will have colon cancer and ending up with it.

Intuition is strong. Our bodies are constantly trying to communicate with us and tell us if something is wrong. It isn’t manifesting. It is sensing.

If we feel something in our bodies and it causes us to pause and pay attention, we need to listen.

I wanted to have the scan done a couple of years ago, but for obvious reasons, it wasn’t appropriate. I tried. And I also felt if it were life-threatening, I wouldn’t have stopped nagging all of my doctors until I had the scan. I tucked my worries away until they became necessary.

I can tell the difference between a casual thought and a dangerous one.

I have attached a link here to help you recognize intuition in your body too.

Never take an intuitive thought for granted. Get it checked out.

If we are sensing something, we need to say something. It can and will save our lives.


author: Stephanie Arnold

Image: Author's Own

Editor: Michelle Gean

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Jeff Hutzler Jun 8, 2019 3:29pm

I agree with you-you cannot manifest mentally serious health conditions-obviously your conceptual mind ,the voice of the ego-loves to believe it is all powerful-Thank god/ess/less we do not have that kind of power.This kind of view is not in line with reality.Creating good and bad karmic seeds ,i think might be a thing-so as an aspiring buddhist,getting informed about that and ethical conduct might help with a kind of complex “manifestation” based on cause and effect.I also agree that your body will try to make “you” aware of any malfunctions,absolutely.What do you think? I am not super aware of the manifesting enthusiast community-lol.

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Stephanie Arnold

Stephanie Arnold, in her former life, was a TV producer who spent 27 years creating and directing TV shows, music videos, and documentaries. She left that crazy business in 2008 after meeting the love of her life. From that point on, the only thing she wanted to produce was a family.

It was during the birth of her second child that Stephanie suffered a rare, but often fatal, a condition called an amniotic fluid embolism (AFE) and died on the operating table for 37 Seconds. Her debut, best-selling book 37 Seconds(HarperOne 2015) retells the harrowing story of survival against all odds. Everything she does now, in this lifetime, is a direct result of her survival.

Stephanie currently serves on the board of directors for the AFE Foundation, speaks to organizations like the American Society of Anesthesiologists, Department of Defense, medical schools and hospitals, SOAP (Obstetric, Anesthesia, and Perinatology) on how to best advocate for yourself. She has created a website, where she blogs and offers validation to people who are feeling things they cannot see. Science does not have all the answers. Stephanie seeks to instill her message wherever she can: If you sense something, say something.

Stephanie lives in Chicago with her husband Jonathan and is the loving mother of Adina, Jacob, and stepdaughter Valentina.

You can connect with her on Instagram.