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Although I initially felt a sense of relief with the closing of the Lion’s Gate portal, the energy appears to be ramping up again.
Lion’s Gate brought us a well-needed influx of powerful energy. Although it was exhausting at the start, it was as though the universe infused us with some optimism which culminated on August 8th (8/8).
This year’s Lion’s Gate seemed to be the most powerful one I have ever experienced as it also coincided with a new moon in Leo. Hopefully, you felt it too. Lion’s Gate is a portal that is activated by the rising of the star Sirius, which is considered our Spiritual Sun. Many ancient civilizations considered this to be the start of the new year.
On 8/8, the Sirius star aligned with our sun and was believed to be a powerful time of rebirth, spiritual advancement, and a shift into a higher state of consciousness. 8/8 represents infinity, spiritual intelligence, and possibly even DNA activation. I recently learned that one of the reasons this portal was so exhausting was that we were being infused with so much light energy, which definitely takes a toll on the physical body to process. Although I was hoping for some visible divine intervention, it did feel as though this was somewhat of a turning point.
If you believe we are shifting into a new consciousness, whether you refer to it as the Age of Aquarius or 5D ascension, you have probably been experiencing a lot of ups and downs, possibly even prior to 2020. Not only have we been experiencing the anxiety and sadness regarding the events that have transpired within the collective since 2020, but I have also felt that there seems to be so much more happening.
If we are ultimately headed to a better place of love and light, I often wonder why has this shift has been so incredibly painful. One theory is that if we are shifting into a more evolved state of consciousness—there is so much for us to work through internally so as not to bring this with us into this new age (not to mention all the physical upgrades we have been experiencing).
We are clearing many lifetimes of trauma and old programming from the Age of Pisces, which is approximately 2,500 years worth. This deep, emotional housekeeping has definitely been difficult and exhausting. And in order to purge trauma that is stored in cellular memory, we must feel it. All of it. And it appears that some of us are working through lifetimes of it.
Although the last year and a half has been quite challenging, I felt a huge shift begin in 2017 (numerological year number one), which I believe was preparing me for what was to come.
I remember so vividly that, at the beginning of the fall in 2016, I woke up one day with this knowing that something big was going to happen globally and I had to be extremely diligent not to expose myself to anything fear-based, especially mainstream media.
Although I did not watch the mainstream media and lived as much as possible out of the “matrix,” so to speak, it seemed more important than ever to fully disconnect from these sources. Although I had been doing a significant amount of personal and spiritual work for quite some time, it was soon after that I encountered my first dark night of the soul experience when we entered into eclipse season at the beginning of 2017. I was faced with extreme anxiety and horrific panic attacks that would wake me up early in the morning and continue throughout the day. This went on for months.
Although I was no stranger to depression, this was my first experience with panic attacks. It was as though I had worked through so many layers of depression which allowed all the anxiety that I obviously never dealt with from childhood and beyond to just break through the surface.
During that time, the nodes also shifted into Aquarius/Leo. In astrology, the nodes refer to the karmic work that needs to be done and they work in pairs. Aquarius symbolizes the humanitarian and Leo, its opposite, represents the ego. It is no coincidence that my north node is in the sign of Aquarius. It is also significant that my Saturn is in the 12th house. The house in which your Saturn is placed indicates the karma you are to work through in this lifetime. Twelfth house placement is indicative of karmic review, which may be why I am able to spontaneously regress and have done so pretty much since 2012.
Since 2017, when there would be a major astrological event, I would experience intense anxiety, followed by a feeling of nausea, and then have several flashbacks to childhood and past lives. I started referring to these as “Ayahuasca” moments because what I experience appeared to be very similar to what individuals experience after consuming Ayahuasca. Under the direction of a Shaman, an individual drinks Ayahuasca, which is derived from a hallucinogenic plant, in order to access trauma from childhood and past lives. This hallucinogenic provides one with access to experiences that need to be healed which are repressed in the subconscious mind. Once you access the memory and the intense emotions surrounding it, you literally and figuratively purge the experience out of the body, which can lead to tremendous insights. When I have my experiences, I too, feel nauseated but instead of vomiting, I have a good cry, which seems to be a lot more pleasant.
At the end of April 2020, Pluto went into retrograde, which was the beginning of a retrograde storm. A retrograde storm is when several planets are in retrograde at the same time, which does not occur very frequently. When a planet goes retrograde, whatever the theme of the planet, this will lead us to examine subconscious material associated with it. A retrograde storm creates an energetic environment that can seem pretty emotionally intense as we are all asked to examine things that may have been hidden in the subconscious, which added to the intensity of last year.
Although I did not feel much when Pluto went into retrograde, I felt the energy shift quite dramatically at the beginning of May when the nodes changed from Cancer/Capricorn into Gemini/Sagittarius. This started a series of breakdowns and breakthroughs. Between May and the end of October, with every retrograde, full moon, and eclipse, I would again tap into such intense emotional experiences. If you experienced anything like this, you were experiencing the dark night of the soul, which was occurring collectively.
In addition to the collective dark night of the soul experience, you may have also had a strange perception of time. In 2020, I felt as though the days would go by quickly, even though I was not doing nearly as much as I used it. And when I look back to a week ago, for example, it would feel like a month. The days somehow felt action-packed even though not much was happening—well, at least not consciously.
I had felt as though my subconscious self was working overtime. You may have also experienced intense fatigue and difficulty performing even simple tasks. During 2020, it felt as though I was attempting to navigate reality through molasses. I think this was in part because our bodies, minds, and spirits were somehow recalibrating to adjust to this upcoming shift.
2021 has had a slightly different feel to it. I believe our bodies are still upgrading to this new consciousness, but at least for me, it feels like I processed a lot of my past. However, there is such incredible sadness and anxiety about what is to come.
Right after the Spring Equinox, I started experiencing a new phenomenon. I encountered a period of intense questioning. Almost daily, I kept wondering:
Am I on the right path? Why am I here? What is the meaning of all of this?
I felt as though I had lost all confidence and had no idea who I was and where I was going. This went on until right after the summer solstice. Many of my lightworker friends were also having a similar experience. Thankfully, this too has passed, but now the energy feels like it is accelerating at a high rate.
We are definitely going through one of the most interesting and exciting times in history. This situation seems to be far from over. I predict that we will be experiencing this shift until at least 2025, possibly 2030. However, I truly believe we will all get to the other side and the transformation will be amazing, but I sometimes wonder how much more of this roller-coaster ride I can endure.
I hope that you are taking such good care of yourself during this challenging time and understand that you are definitely not alone on this journey. Let us all keep our vibration as high as we can and our thoughts and intentions focused on the world we wish to create; one of love and light.
Sending you all love and healing vibes!